2024, what can I say. You’ve been, by far, easily, without a doubt, the WORST year of my life. And as glad as I was to see you come, oh BOY am I ready to see you go. This chapter, this year, has been complete and utter bullshit. With every single member of my family […]
As great as Christmas is and was, I can honestly say I’m relieved that it’s over. As a parent of 3 young kids, Christmas really, really burns me out. They kids had a magical and amazing day, and I’m grateful all 3 of them managed to stay healthy and out of the hospital. It was
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Things have been one huge mess of chaos here for the past 2 weeks. And with the already massive stress of the holidays and all that that is, I didn’t exactly needed to add any more onto my plate. Last week, Phoenix, my 6 year old, stayed home for most of the week with a
For a Friday, this morning did not start off feeling like it had any kind of Friday vibes. Actually, this morning started out with a whole lotta bullshit. My sister, aka the actual devil, aka the one who horrifically abused me my entire life growing up, is coming to “visit” today for the next 3
Last night, I had therapy. And I think for the first time in a long time, it felt like therapy. Which, to be very honest, is terrifying. Therapy is starting to feel like therapy again. Finally. After months of the most fucked up transition period imaginable. And it’s terrifying. To learn to trust, to try
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Today was another day that started off at 5am for an early morning road trip to Dallas. The kids had yet another specialist appointment, but luckily, we made good time and didn’t get caught up in traffic. We make it home by 11:45, which definitely isn’t the worst day. I put my youngest down for
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We’re officially in the thick of Thanksgiving break with all the kids home from school. My week has been surprisingly loaded up with appointments, so it’s not like we’ve been stuck with nothing to do. For the first time in…well, since we moved to Texas like 10 years ago, Thanksgiving will look just a bit
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Yesterday started with the most abrupt of wake up calls at 5am when a nurse turned on the bright lights while my son and I were dead asleep. My two older sons had a sleep study in Dallas on Tuesday night, 2 hours away from our house. We left at 4pm to get there by
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I’ve lived through a lot of hurt in my 30 years of life. A lot of pain, trauma, abuse…you name it, I’ve been through it. So it makes sense why I have this deep rooted inability to trust people. Because in my experience, people are untrustworthy, people hurt you, and that that’s the only constant
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Today is simply just that. It’s today. It’s not yesterday, not tomorrow, not two months ago, and not the future or the past. Today is today. So that’s what I need to focus on. Living for right now, in this moment, with focusing only on what needs my direct and immediate attention. Right now, I
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