Month: December 2021

A gentle reminder that my life isn’t “normal”

My son had his 3 year visit with his pediatrician this morning. The appointments that, for typical kids, might last 15 or 20 minutes, takes us an hour to complete. I hate these yearly visits. It’s a brutal reminder of just how….abnormal my life is. When I always seem to convince myself to forget. I …

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When the nights force you to feel the pain you desperately try to avoid…

This is currently the story of my life. Everything can be going…as fine as it can be, I guess, but then the same thing happens nearly every night during the rough phases. My husband wants to go to sleep. I usually agree, because I’m exhausted. But then I start procrastinating, avoiding it at all costs. …

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The dreaded tomorrow

Tomorrow brings another Tuesday. A 2 hour therapy day…and one that I desperately need to NOT completely fuck up again. I have something along the lines of…hope(?) that maybe I can just like…be normal? Which, of course, means going in there and being sarcastic and light and not serious at all about anything because I’m …

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How do you talk about the hard things in therapy?

You’d think I’d be good at this “therapy” thing by now. Especially since I’ve been with my current therapist for something like 6 years now…which that in and of itself is nothing short of a miracle. I’ll never say enough good things about her, and she’s done a stellar job at keeping me alive. (Good …

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