Month: April 2022

Hurt.

How could you do that? You did the very thing that you KNEW I was the most afraid of. Giving up on me. You gave up on me. I gave you something to read, hoping it would help you understand how I was feeling, where I was coming from. How do you interpret that from …

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Unpacking this emotional fuckery

So…something kind of…crazy happened the other day. First of all, yes, I’m alive. I survived. The hard part isn’t over, not by a long shot…but one day at a time…right? Secondly…holy shit. Like, actually, holy fucking shit. On Monday, my sons birthday…I struggled. Of course. I sent the text, the “happy birthday, please give my …

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From the journal of a girl who is about to lose her son…

April 3rd, 2014“I can’t believe I’ve made it this far. This long without cutting, drinking, smoking…I can’t believe it’s all almost over. I had a doctor appointment the other day and I’m going to be induced tonight on the 3rd, and hopefully deliver on the 4th. That was my actual due date. I should’ve called …

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Honoring our “inside” voices

“Does sometimes your outside voice say ‘yes’ when your inside voice says ‘no’?” First of all, if you know where this quote is from, then welcome. You’re officially one of my people. For those of you, likely without young children, that don’t know, it’s a quote from (the best) kids show, Bluey. And today, after …

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