It just hurts too much.

I’m tired. I’m too tired to keep doing this. I don’t have anything better than that to say today.

Depression is kicking my ass, the pain is winning, and I feel broken and alone.

I keep wondering what the point is, and I just don’t think there is one anymore.

I’m not okay. I haven’t been for a while. But I kept hoping things would get better, that I’d get what I need. That hasn’t happened, and now I’m pretty sure that it won’t happen.

I’m too broken for this world. I’m too alone, and I’m in too much pain. It’s too much to carry alone right now.

It hurts too much. And I have nowhere to put the pain.

9 thoughts on “It just hurts too much.”

  1. Alana,
    I don’t have the right words to “make you feel better”, and I can’t promise that everything wrong will be fixed. I can’t even promise that tomorrow will be better. But you have a place in the world, and you are worthy of that place. The pain is not fair, and depression is a monster, but please hang on. Please.

    1. Thank you, I really do appreciate that.
      I’m doing my best. I’m sure I’ll be okay. It’s just been rough lately.

  2. Depression sure sucks big time! I wish I could say it will get better. And it may get better of course, but in what time frame and with how much effort? I haven’t the foggiest! But I know you’re strong and I hope you will see your lovely family and feel they are wanted so you’ll keep fighting! Sending you much strength and I hope tomorrow will be better 🍀

  3. Hang in there! It’s so difficult going through what you are. I’ve been in a similar situation in my life while I was struggling with chronic illness. Hope is here! Believe in yourself! In your worth and true goodness!
    It’s hard to hold on when it’s dark all around and inside… routing for you and sending you my warmest ❤️‍🩹

    1. I have the chronic illness battle as well. It’s definitely not fun!! It’s hard to see the hope when everything is dark, that’s very true. But I’m trying. I’ll keep trying.
      Thank you ❤️

      1. That great, dear Alana! Please feel better. Your words really touched me deeply and I understand the difficult place you’re in.. sending love your way 💕

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