Yesterday morning, as I got in the car at 7:30am to take my son to PT, I was NOT greeted with the Bobby Bones show like I am every other morning. Instead, the normal radio broadcast was interrupted with livestream weather coverage of active and severe storms in our area. Storms are common enough where […]
Unexpected storms. Read More »
When it rains, it pours. That’s what they say at least. And. Let. Me. Tell. You. Oooooh boy, the floodgates of hell itself have opened up, and not only is it raining, but it’s pouring down the most acidic, fiery and poisonous raindrops down onto my life. Let’s recap real quick. Just…real quick. What my
What, you thought it wouldn’t get worse? Read More »
Sometimes, when you’re in the thick of it, all you can do is do…and keep doing. You can’t feel. You can’t stop. There’s no time to slow down. You just simply…continue on. Like, fight and flight both happening at the same time, both extremes somehow working together to just…help you survive. Autopilot. Going through the
Accepting that I’m sad Read More »
As per usual, the chaos continues here in our household, but we keep on moving! Last night, our day didn’t end until 9:30 pm. Between the kids, the goats, only having one car…it was a completely nonstop day. From 5am to 9pm. The exhaustion was REAL. All 3 kids are some level of sick. My
Never ending…but worth it. Read More »
These past few days, I’ve been struggling a lot with understanding and accepting what “normal” is now. I don’t think we’ve quite reached the place where the period of trauma and healing ends, and the new “normal” begins…but we’re getting closer. And I’m struggling to see what that might look like. My husband’s car is
What is the new normal? Read More »
I’ve been in a pretty big funk since my husband got into his accident on Tuesday. He went through a trauma…but so did I. There are things I can’t unsee, can’t unhear, and can’t unfeel. I can’t talk about any of it with him, and everyone else has been pretty unavailable when it comes to
Unprocessed trauma, and all of these foreign feelings. Read More »
Yesterday morning was a completely normal morning. Until it wasn’t. Until it would become one of those moments that none of us would ever forget, that would have a forever long impact. I left my house at 7:15am. Dropped my 7 year old off at school at 7:31am. Got gas, I was on E. Continued
Everything can change. Read More »
This entire week has been, if nothing else, a truly unforgettable week. For about a hundred different reasons. While I’m not yet ready to recap it completely, today is our last full day here. It consists of a good bit more testing, labs, EMGSs and EKGs. And who knows what else. Yesterday was hard. Every
Harder than I hoped Read More »
Life is just interesting beyond measure sometimes. Like, traveling to the NIH for myself and my 3 kids to be tested, researched, and hopefully diagnosed. Some words I never thought would ever come out of mouth, yet, here we are. Yesterday was our travel day, and oooh what a shit show it was. We took
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It’s the end of the day on what is my son’s 7th birthday. And oh, what a day it was. I feel SO much pressure to make these days perfect. The days that are special. That they’ll remember, and think back on. I feel like it’s all on me, and if I fuck it up,
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