Atlas Isaac. Today, you turn one. To be honest, first birthdays are always a bit hard for me. There’s just something so special and so magical about the first year. Watching them learn and change so quickly, experiencing so many firsts together, it’s always been an emotional day for me. This one is no different. …
He’s 51 weeks old. That means that next week, in 7 days…he turns one. And that’s a day I have been dreading for weeks now. More than likely, he’s my last. Our last baby, our last first birthday…and I hate it all so much. I’ve put off planning a party. Buying decorations. Coming up with …
Yesterday, my birthday and travel day, was freaking chaotic and stressful, but ended on a high note. We officially made it to Orlando after quite the ordeal. Our first flight, originally scheduled for 10:26am, didn’t depart until 1:05pm. Our second flight was SUPPOSED to depart at 1:58. But, they decided to be 20 minutes EARLY…and …
We’re here, we made it. Another birthday. To be honest, today doesn’t feel like my birthday in quite the traditional way. I did eat cake last night, and we had breakfast sandwiches early this morning for breakfast. My husband woke me up at 3:45am (thank you?) because he was excited or anxious or whatever else …
Tonight, this whole year, would feel incomplete if I didn’t say something today. Today was my last day I’ll ever spend being 28. Everything considered…in a life as hard as mine is…28 was a really good year. Being as it was my favorite number…I had high hopes for it. I’ll have a lot to say …
I’m leaving in….36 hours? I have not started packing. Nothing is gathered or together. Laundry isn’t done. Well, it’s washed, but not folded. Traveling isn’t difficult for me. Packing isn’t difficult. So….what’s the fucking problem? Why am I suddenly SO paralyzed with anxiety and depression that NOTHING can get done? Am I so much of …
Well, I did it. I woke up this morning, wrapped my birth sons presents for his birthday, wrote him a note, and mailed it off. It was hard and emotional, and took a lot out of me, but I finally got it done. It should get there in time for his birthday (which is a …
Life has been an absolute whirlwind these past few weeks. My son starting school, my marriage being momentarily tumultuous, therapy being big and important and something I’m thinking about…just, like, having 3 kids in general… Yeah. I have more than enough on my plate to keep me busy and my mind occupied. However, something happened …
Today, my baby, who is now really my middle child (as of 7 weeks ago), turns 4. My little Phoenix Leo. A name that absolutely demands strength. A boy who’s body betrays him. Weak muscles and plagued with fatigue. But that’s the only weak thing about him. This boy is fierce. He is strong willed. …
Year 28. Much like last year, coming into my 28th year looks a lot different than I thought it would. Year 27 was…..brutal. It was probably one of the worst years to date. And trust me, I’ve had a lot of bad years. Like many years throughout my life, the beginning of last year started …