One year later, and absolutely nothing is the same. February 13th, 2024. Just 4 days after our family returned home from our trip to the NIH. Our lives would truly be changed forever. It was a Tuesday morning. I dropped the my oldest son off at school, a first grader just beginning his school career. […]
One year later, and a whole lot more broken. Read More »
I have so much racing through my mind and my heart. So much that I’m feeling, thinking…hoping for and afraid of. I feel so much. Yet, I don’t feel like I have any words. It happens occasionally, more often than I’d like…maybe twice a year or so. But I get this feeling. Like…I’m so broken.
If there’s one thing I’m sure of in life, it’s that our life in particular will just never be boring. It’s always going to be something, and all we can do is buckle up and prepare for whatever comes next. This week starts off with a Monday, much like all the other ones do. But
An abundance of chaos Read More »
Last night I had therapy. It was one that I was anxiously anticipating for a few weeks, and to be honest, the anticipation of this particular appointment definitely messed me up mentally a little bit. What ended up being a nearly 2 and a half hour session definitely provided me with answers to questions I’ve
Getting an adult autism diagnosis: Confirmed, confused, and validated Read More »
While nightmares have always been a hugely unfortunate part of my sleeping journey, sometimes they are worse and more frequent than others. Lately, the nightmares have been consuming a large part of my mental space. And last night, they were worse than ever. In a good dreamed turned awful, my birth son was there. He
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Dear anything, While I don’t know exactly what I need from you right now, I do know that it’s something. Anything. I need anything to keep going. An ounce of hope. A reason to believe things will be okay… An iota of stress being taken off my plate. Things are only getting more and more
Do you ever have those days where you find yourself emotional and borderline crying over seemingly every little thing? That’s how I’m feeling. Like, just any little thing has me basically an emotional mess. Maybe it’s the fact that my husband woke up at 4:45am to go to work and I had to drive him
My blog here in WordPress is my safe place. Where my unfiltered thoughts can live their most authentic lives, as they serve to heal me through their honest power. And oh, let me tell you just how healing that is. I’ve had a really rough few days lately, but I’m feeling secure enough in who
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It’s nights like this where I can feel it slipping away. The anxiety creeps in, the anger takes over in its fucked up attempt at protecting me, and I’m losing the ability to reason with it using logic, my best defense against it all. The anxiety has taken over. Anxiety has ruined a lot of
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My world feels like nothing right now. Yet, it feels impossibly heavy all at the same time. And that’s something that has always confused me. How can something be so nothing, and yet so damn everything all at once? How can it mean so much to me, and at the same time…so nothing to the
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