This flare up has been truly unimaginable. I feel like it’s taken everything from me. The past few weeks have been nothing but pain and hurting and…just trying to survive. My joints hurt, my head hurts, my body hurts, my nerves hurt. My freaking soul hurts. This summer has kicked my ass. Physically, emotionally and […]
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How I’ve been feeling these last few days…these last few weeks even…. It’s not okay. I feel like shit. Physically, I’m in the worst flare up I’ve been in in a long time. I can’t sleep both because of the extra levels of pain, and the additional nightmares. Despite my husband working what seems like
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Last night, we had some crazy storms come through. Like, hurricane force winds type of thing. So, that was fun. It didn’t end up hitting our area until around 12:30am, so I pretty much stayed up most of the night. It was a night full of emergency alerts and stress, and I woke up today
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Things have been…ugly bad lately. Summer home with all 3 kids has been impossible. And it’s only been 2 weeks. It’s my oldest in particular that’s challenging me the most. He’s struggling with the transition between school and summer, and he’s reflecting in his behavior. I’m doing the best I can with it, but I’m
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For as different as things have been feeling lately…I think things are finally starting to fall into place a little bit. The out of the ordinary is starting to feel ordinary, the things not normally part of my day are starting to feel like a normal part of every day now, and the weird is
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Ugh. Summer vacation is officially here. The kids have been some since Thursday last week, and I’m already losing my mind. It doesn’t help that I’ve been basically single parenting for the entire time, when I’d hoped I’d get some time off instead. Usually, on a 3 day weekend, my husband would definitely take the
Well, here we are. The last day of school. Shit. Now, I love my kids. I really do. But I don’t think anyone loves the idea or the task of being home with THREE boys all day, everyday. All day with an 8, 6 and 2 year old? Ugh. Everyone annoys everyone, someone is always
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Okay. Let’s take a second to keep it real. Things have been rough lately. Really, really rough. My birth sons birthday, then Mother’s Day (one hell of a trigger, regardless of the fact that I parent 3 other children), a lot of challenging medical things with my kids (and myself), and a lot of loss.
The old me is making a strong push to become the new me, once again. I don’t know how I feel about it. Well, that’s not true. I do know how I feel about it. But I feel very differently about it, depending on what time of day I were to ask myself. I recognize
This is a post for accountability. Things have been hard. Obviously. But I’ve been sober. Mostly. I’ve done a job worthy of being insanely proud of. After 15 years of more or less active (alcohol) addiction, I dug myself out, alone, and got myself sober. It was grueling and excruciating. It hurt. Physically, emotionally, and
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