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One more Sunday

Dear weekend, I’m not quite ready for you to leave me just yet. You were too busy, too fast, too chaotic. If I could just have one more day, one more Sunday… I’m just not ready to move on yet. I’m not ready to meet Monday where it is. Sunday, you weren’t good to me …

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Wagon? What wagon?

Off the wagon: to be drinking alcohol again after a period of abstinence. If an alcoholic could ever drink “responsibly” (which they can’t), I’m sure it would look a lot like this. A lot like what I’m doing now. Drinking in “reasonable” amounts, only at night, and not harming anyone. Well, at least no one …

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Accepting that I cannot control this.

The first(?) step towards breaking down this brick wall that I’ve built around myself is to just admit that I cannot control this. I have no control over my addictions, over alcohol…I just can’t control it. That’s the focus in therapy right now. Just simply coming to terms with the fact that this is not …

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Not a “real” 6 months…but one day it could be.

Last night, I got a notification on my phone that notified me of a “milestone” I had reached…being 6 months sober. I immediately brushed it off and swiped away the notification, as I have done with others like it in the past, and moved on. But something about it bothered me. Normally, 6 months would …

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