Things have been…ugly bad lately. Summer home with all 3 kids has been impossible. And it’s only been 2 weeks. It’s my oldest in particular that’s challenging me the most. He’s struggling with the transition between school and summer, and he’s reflecting in his behavior. I’m doing the best I can with it, but I’m […]
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The old me is making a strong push to become the new me, once again. I don’t know how I feel about it. Well, that’s not true. I do know how I feel about it. But I feel very differently about it, depending on what time of day I were to ask myself. I recognize
While I have spent the past 6 days emotionally recovering from the bullshit that life can sometimes be…I was handed yet another curveball. As you may or may not know (but you probably do, let’s be honest), me and my 3 kids suffer from an insanely rare, and in fact non existent outside of our
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Yup. I’m still going strong here. Well, okay. Not strong at all, actually. I feel like a dumpster fire, the withdrawal headaches are the worst today they they have been so far, and I honestly want to give up just to stop the pain. I haven’t had anything to drink since late night March 18th.
Doing the damn thing Read More »
I’ve tried to be…stable at best…when it comes to alcohol lately. And for the most part, I’ve succeeded. Keeping it stable. Not increasing. Not allowing the negative emotions or demons or life circumstances to influence my nighttime decision making process. And honestly, the past few months or so? I’ve been killing it. But. But. Something
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Well…you know what I always say. My life will never be boring. I will always have something to talk about, something crazy going on. And oh, how this held true yesterday. Yesterday morning, my 15lb dog, Calvin, decided he wanted to ✨spice✨ up my day. He had some help from my 2 year old, but
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One year later, and absolutely nothing is the same. February 13th, 2024. Just 4 days after our family returned home from our trip to the NIH. Our lives would truly be changed forever. It was a Tuesday morning. I dropped the my oldest son off at school, a first grader just beginning his school career.
One year later, and a whole lot more broken. Read More »
I have so much racing through my mind and my heart. So much that I’m feeling, thinking…hoping for and afraid of. I feel so much. Yet, I don’t feel like I have any words. It happens occasionally, more often than I’d like…maybe twice a year or so. But I get this feeling. Like…I’m so broken.
Dear the most honest version of me, Hello there, a version of myself that I don’t yet quite recognize. I have to wonder…have we ever met yet? Are you a version of me that I’ve seen before? That I’ve met and lost along the way…? Or have I simply yet to ever encounter you yet?
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Tonight has been one trigger after another, after another. It doesn’t matter what the fuck the cause was. Or the result, or the aftermath. Or even the aftermath of the aftermath. Because it was all wrong. And it was all fucked up. Be it the events of the week (my appointment with my neuromuscular doc
