I have anxiety, but I don’t know where to put it. So it just sits there. Festering and growing. My body feels restless, my heart is about to pound out of my chest, and my mind is going a thousand miles a minute. I know what the problem is. Or, rather, problems. There’s no shortage …
When the anxiety is so palpable, you can hear nothing but your own heartbeat inside of your ears. Your chest feels like it’ll very likely explode with the next way too strong beat. You don’t want to drink more. You know that won’t help! But it does……..until it doesn’t. Until you take it too far. …
Well, yesterday went about as well and true to form as it could have possibly gone. I am happy to report that both of my children were EXACTLY, 100% themselves yesterday when their therapist came to our house. Chaos ensued as promised, and boy did she get a glimpse into the reality of my every …
When things go exactly as expected, and the unknowns of the future Read More »
A Sunday night after an impossibly long week. Thankfully, I found a few hours here and there over the course of my chaotic weekend to have some moments of quiet for myself. Thankfully, I have a husband who recognizes my NEED for alone time…without the background noise of 3 boys yelling and screaming…either playfully or …
When I woke up yesterday, I was so excited it was Friday. As you may or may not know by now, Friday is the one day of the week that I don’t have any standing appointments. Often, I’ll schedule doctor appointments on Fridays, but not always. My excitement for my “quieter than normal day” quickly …
Sick babies, cozy cuddles, and worst case scenarios. Read More »
Today was harder than it should’ve been. I’ll detail that more tomorrow, I promise. But today was hard. I got through it…we got through it. It didn’t end it tragedy. It didn’t end tragically. Yet, I’m still struggling. Today was triggering. My son’s health was seriously jeopardized. He’s fine. It’s fine. He’s safe. But I …
Last night was the single most intense and terrifying night of my life. I was absolutely sure I was going to die. Let me back up. First of all, it was a great night! It was fun and a whole vibe and just…a good night. (I know, what the fuck am I talking about. Right? …
I’m alive, I have new trauma, and the adventure continues! Read More »
Even now, in the “best I’ve felt in years”, coming off a high of 2 vacations back to back, I’m struggling. Even now, after a day that wasn’t all bad. A day that had its moments of hope and promise…I’m struggling. Struggling means a lot of different things for me. Sometimes, it means the most …
It’s been kind of the week from hell, and while I normally don’t love Fridays, I am SO glad that we’re finally here. The week started off with my oldest son getting an EEG. Then he had an appointment with the sleep medicine doctor, and he’ll be getting a sleep study soon. The next day, …
In need of a miracle, and the actual week from hell Read More »
I had an epically bad night last night. I started crying on the way home from therapy, and it got worse and and worse as the night went on. I literally could not calm down. And this morning, my eyes are still incredibly puffy and anyone who looks at me can obviously tell what kind …