The past few days have been…a lot. Tuesday night I had therapy, which went well. It does kind of feel like it’s maybe a safe place where I can say or think or feel what I want or need to and not have to worry quite so much about being judged or looked down upon […]
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Today is the first day since mid December that things have calmed down enough to resume what seems to be our normal schedule and routine. The kids are back in school for real now with no threats of snow days, my husband is back to working his normal hours and the kids therapy schedule has
Here way are, on the 3rd day of a brand new year. A year which, according to THE DIME I got in my piece of New Years cake I got, should be my luckiest year yet. (And if you don’t know what I’m talking about, second half of this post from last year describes the
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2024, what can I say. You’ve been, by far, easily, without a doubt, the WORST year of my life. And as glad as I was to see you come, oh BOY am I ready to see you go. This chapter, this year, has been complete and utter bullshit. With every single member of my family
Do you ever have a day so bad that you just know it isn’t going to get better? Not because you’re being negative or in a bad mindset, just because…it is what it is. But it’s bad anyway, so you figure…might as well do everything unpleasant right now and double down on it because it’s
Things have been one huge mess of chaos here for the past 2 weeks. And with the already massive stress of the holidays and all that that is, I didn’t exactly needed to add any more onto my plate. Last week, Phoenix, my 6 year old, stayed home for most of the week with a
More so than the days, the nights are filled with layers. Not only does the silence allow the emotions to become louder, more real, and ever so present…but the physical pain kicks up too. This is a season of hurt. It’s a flare up like a flare up I haven’t had in a while. Pain
Do you ever have those days where you find yourself emotional and borderline crying over seemingly every little thing? That’s how I’m feeling. Like, just any little thing has me basically an emotional mess. Maybe it’s the fact that my husband woke up at 4:45am to go to work and I had to drive him
There’s a certain desperate loneliness that being in the hospital has to offer. It feels so dark and gloomy and isolating. It seems like I hit this wall with every hospital stay. Around the third day I just feel so…alone. It feels like the entire world suddenly weighs a billion pounds more, and it’s all
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Remember that bad day I wrote about? Well, worst fears have in fact been confirmed. Unfortunately, I write this blog post from the (un)comfort of a hospital room, once again. My 7 year old has been admitted for left lower lobe pneumonia as well as aspiration pneumonia. Not exactly how I wanted to spend my
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