I have anxiety, but I don’t know where to put it. So it just sits there. Festering and growing. My body feels restless, my heart is about to pound out of my chest, and my mind is going a thousand miles a minute. I know what the problem is. Or, rather, problems. There’s no shortage …
Sometimes, therapy just….is what it is. I knew last night would be hard. I knew I’d have to talk about the things that hurt the most. And that’s exactly what happened. As soon as I got there, she basically said “let’s color today, it seems like a good day for coloring”. I totally didn’t disagree. …
If you’ve been hanging around here for a while, you’re probably quite familiar with therapy Mondays. But. Have you ever heard of …. Therapy Sunday?!?! That’s right! This weekend also consisted of surprise therapy! Granted, not with my therapist, but my kids. She wanted to meet with me and my husband without the kids, and …
When the anxiety is so palpable, you can hear nothing but your own heartbeat inside of your ears. Your chest feels like it’ll very likely explode with the next way too strong beat. You don’t want to drink more. You know that won’t help! But it does……..until it doesn’t. Until you take it too far. …
When I woke up yesterday, I was so excited it was Friday. As you may or may not know by now, Friday is the one day of the week that I don’t have any standing appointments. Often, I’ll schedule doctor appointments on Fridays, but not always. My excitement for my “quieter than normal day” quickly …
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Today was harder than it should’ve been. I’ll detail that more tomorrow, I promise. But today was hard. I got through it…we got through it. It didn’t end it tragedy. It didn’t end tragically. Yet, I’m still struggling. Today was triggering. My son’s health was seriously jeopardized. He’s fine. It’s fine. He’s safe. But I …
He’s 51 weeks old. That means that next week, in 7 days…he turns one. And that’s a day I have been dreading for weeks now. More than likely, he’s my last. Our last baby, our last first birthday…and I hate it all so much. I’ve put off planning a party. Buying decorations. Coming up with …
I’ve been blogging here on WordPress for a good few years now. And in those 3ish(?) years, I’ve learned a lot of things. I’ve learned about myself, I’ve learned about other people and their stories, both similar to mine and completely different. But the thing that’s made the biggest impact is the actual, genuine, real …
Even now, in the “best I’ve felt in years”, coming off a high of 2 vacations back to back, I’m struggling. Even now, after a day that wasn’t all bad. A day that had its moments of hope and promise…I’m struggling. Struggling means a lot of different things for me. Sometimes, it means the most …
Just like that, we’re back to our regularly scheduled programming. It doesn’t take long to get right back into the swing of things back at home, does it? Yesterday was my first full day back at home in 2 weeks. It was a typical Monday. Wake up. Take the 6 year old to school. Come …