vulnerability

Anxiety on top of anxiety

Tonight, I have therapy. A usually much welcomed and needed part to my week, suddenly is causing something much stronger than anxiety within me. When I last went on Friday…things did not end well. Much the opposite of my intentions, things went wrong, and it ended on a really hurtful note which made me feel …

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Dear universe…

Dear universe, please help me. I feel so scared and alone right now. Everything hurts and I feel like there’s no way out but…out. I’m losing ground in a battle that isn’t mine to win. I feel like I’m drowning, and instead of sending lifeboats, people are throwing rocks. Universe, I don’t ask of much …

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Unpacking this emotional fuckery

So…something kind of…crazy happened the other day. First of all, yes, I’m alive. I survived. The hard part isn’t over, not by a long shot…but one day at a time…right? Secondly…holy shit. Like, actually, holy fucking shit. On Monday, my sons birthday…I struggled. Of course. I sent the text, the “happy birthday, please give my …

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Pushing people away when I need them the most

Lately, I find myself feeling very down about myself. I just don’t feel good about anything. I don’t like how I feel, I don’t like how I’m acting because of it…and I don’t know. It just leaves me feeling really pretty worthless and like I have no value..nothing to offer. I guess it feels like …

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