This has been a topic I’ve help close. It’s stayed quiet, and near and dear to my heart, and for the most part…rather undiscussed for the the past 14 months. In case you don’t know what’s going on, basically it boils down to the fact that I’m trying to buy the (perfect) piece of land. …
Love languages. How you feel love. If you’ve read the book or the articles, you know what I’m talking about. There are 5 different love languages: words of affirmation, acts of service, receiving gifts, quality time, and physical touch. My love language has definitely changed over the years, and even depending on who I’m with. …
Sometimes, things happen and line up in a way that just makes you stop and pay attention. I’ve had a few of those nights recently. Last month, driving home from therapy on 2 separate nights, I noticed how both times, I hit nearly every single green light. I live a good 20ish minutes away from …
It’s Memorial Day here in America, which means that my husband has a day off work. If ever a Monday doesn’t feel like a Monday, it’s today. My kids don’t have therapy, my husband is home, and it feels like another weekend day. I do have my therapy tonight still, which I’m glad about. It’s …
I’ve started and restarted this post a few times now already. I guess, much like my life, I can’t find the direction I want to go in. I am feeling a little bit better than I have been feeling, which overall, is a win. Hopefully I’m out of the funk that going on my trip …
Can I keep writing late at night about my truest and most honest and vulnerable feelings? Is that okay with you? It feels a little wrong, it feels a little dirty, but yet…it feels almost necessary. It’s beginning to feel like survival. Tonight is a night. The absolute worst kind of night. I feel so …
Do you ever just want to give up? Want to give in? Want to conform, want to adhere? Want to live up to societal standards of “the norm”? But just… can’t? Are you ever just so fucking sick of hiding yourself that you just………can’t anymore? Except for that face that you still have to? That’s …
It’s Sunday afternoon when I start this post. I’m sitting on the airplane now, I’ve said goodbye to most of my friends, and I’m traveling home with the friend I came here with. This weekend was a lot. There’s a lot for me to process and reflect upon, and I’m not sure where to start. …
As I’m sitting here in my peaceful, quiet hotel room, I realized that this is when I usually write! Instead of being stressed and overwhelmed and overtired, I’m instead sitting in bed, drinking coffee and watching tv. I’m sorry…what? Who’s life is this? The hotel I’m at is beautiful, the view is even better, and …
Last night, my therapist insinuated (or, really, flat out said) that our relationship might be something, bordering or resembling “secure” now. Now, if you’ve been following along for a while now, you’ll know that we’ve been doing a lot of work with relationships and attachments, and trying to form secure attachments, as opposed to anxious …