Do you know what happens when you open up a pressure cooker without first releasing the pressure? Well, if you don’t, here’s what happens. “The contents will erupt violently, potentially causing serious burns, injuries, and property damage.” Thaaaaaaaats how I felt last night. And honestly, how I am still feeling now. Like I was opened […]
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I don’t know what I’m looking for, but I feel like I’m constantly searching for something. Something to fulfill me. To feel less empty, to feel like I have a place in this world. Or a purpose. I really don’t know. I just feel so… empty. Or lacking. Like there’s a part of me that
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Ugh. That’s all I have to say this morning. My husband and I have been working our asses off lately trying to get caught up on our bills. Doing door dashing in every spare moment we have, trying to squeeze every workable ounce out of a day. Last night, it was a pretty horrible storm
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While a good, solid music appreciation post is nothing new to this blog, what you might find different about this post is the genre. A far cry from our typical rap/hip hop…we’re going country today. When I first moved to Texas 11 years ago, there were only 2 radio stations I found that came in
While the universe has been not so subtly kicking my ass the last few weeks, I have been struggling to hang in there. The more life shit and stress and all of the extra that piles on, the more overwhelmed and burnt out I get. I wish I could say we were out of the
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The last few weeks have been…umm…how do we put this…really fucking brutal. The burnout is real, the exhaustion is insane, and I am just so…I don’t know. Tired. I know I haven’t talked about it a ton, but I’m actually doing mostly really well with the sobriety/not drinking thing. After the first 2 weeks of
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While I have spent the past 6 days emotionally recovering from the bullshit that life can sometimes be…I was handed yet another curveball. As you may or may not know (but you probably do, let’s be honest), me and my 3 kids suffer from an insanely rare, and in fact non existent outside of our
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This past week has truly been…unfathomable. It’s been hard. And heartbreaking. And lonely, and brutal, and so on. I’ve been shut down. Because any alternative has honestly been too much to consider. I feel broken and…yeah. Just broken. I had therapy tonight after a truly horrific day. While I don’t yet have the words or
Today was awful. For every single reason. My heart does t have it in me to go into any kind of detail. But… Tornados. Flash floods. Horrible anxiety provoking weather…that continues to tomorrow late afternoon. And that was honestly just the welcomed distraction. My birth son turned 11 years old today. It was an awful
I hate today because of what tomorrow is. It already feels so heavy, the tidal wave of grief is already starting to flood in. Tomorrow is my birth son’s 11th birthday. A day that consumes me with grief and depression every single year. I don’t have a plan for tomorrow, I don’t know how I’m
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