Ah, deadlines. I don’t know what it is about it, but I just can’t seem to get it together lately. The end of July brings a few deadlines. I need to renew my professional license (not that I’m currently working, but I don’t want it to expire), and I need to send in the application for a grant for reimbursement for medical supplies for my kids.
These are both things that I’ve known about for months now…but here I am with 3 days left and I’ve yet to even start. I don’t know why I’m having such a hard time with procrastination right now. I’m honestly just so overwhelmed by life that even the thought of something that I have to do is just… It’s a lot.
At the end of the day, I know I’ll probably get it all done. The closer it gets to the end of the month, the more anxious I get. I know I would feel better if it was just done, so I don’t know why I’m making it worse for myself.
I don’t know. Life is just really a lot lately. I can’t seem to bring myself to do anything that requires more mental energy.
My body and my mind need a rest. Like, a legitimate rest. My head is all over the place right now, and I just want to do nothing.
Maybe I’ll get at least one thing done today, but even that feels too big. We’ll see. This is just a rough season for me. I’ll get through it though, I always do.
I wish I knew how to push myself to get this done. It’s been like this a lot lately. Even this simplest tasks I just…don’t want to do. I guess that’s just part of life though. Sometimes things are harder than others, and I just need to keep pushing through. I know I can. I’m strong enough to push through this setback. Even if it happens at the last minute, I know I’ll do what I need to do when it comes down to it.
I hope.