The many forms of addiction

Yesterday, I was sad. And since it’s springtime…the only obvious solution was to buy some more baby chicks.

This is something I do every year, and plan for ahead of time…but yesterday was a spur of the moment decision. I already have 15 coming at the end of May…so it’s not like I wasn’t already planning on this….but, like I said. I was sad. So I said “why not get a jump on chick season?”

Will I probably regret it in a month when I have brand new babies and 4 week olds? Possibly.

But the now version of me needed a little pick me up. And what a better way to pick myself up than with adorable babies?

As far as addiction goes…this really isn’t a harmful one. I have the space and the means and the supplies. But it definitely is still an addiction in a way. I’m sad. I don’t need this, I have some coming in a month, but this will feel good now, and I want to feel good now.

Yes, it was impulsive. But it wasn’t as bad as a lot of other things I could’ve done to feel better. And they’re so cute!

Is it a problem? Yeah. Maybe. I honestly haven’t worked out how to not self medicate with other things when I’m trying not to drink. Like, I can tell that my sugar addiction is really kicking into high gear. I eat extremely healthy and enjoy eating well…but chocolate. Sad? Eat some chocolate.

Addiction takes many forms. Some are more harmful than others, some are more intrusive, but they all serve the same purpose. To make you feel good, even if just for a second.

I don’t know if it’s okay to transfer addictions like that. Yeah, it’s better than drinking, and I could’ve gotten drunk yesterday morning instead, but I didn’t.

Is that okay? Is it okay to allow other addictions to exist, like sugar, if it means you’re not doing the more harmful ones?

I think I know the answer, and I think the answer is no. Finding healthier ways to cope is the answer.

But, for now, for today, I have 4 adorable new babies. And I’m not too upset about it.