As per usual, the chaos continues here in our household, but we keep on moving! Last night, our day didn’t end until 9:30 pm. Between the kids, the goats, only having one car…it was a completely nonstop day. From 5am to 9pm. The exhaustion was REAL. All 3 kids are some level of sick. My […]
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My head isn’t a fun place to be in this morning. It’s dark, it’s scary, it’s fragile… Last night my husband and I had therapy together with both of of therapists. So, it was all 4 of us together. We’ve been talking about doing this for a while, and I’m glad it happened. It was
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Not often, or, actually, probably never, do I start blog posts out with a teaser. But ooooh boy, today is the start of some BIG changes for us. It was sudden, simultaneously discussed for years and impulsive, possibly stupid, but very exciting. I’m officially share about it on Tuesday. But…yeah. I’m beyond excited. And also
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If there’s one true thing I can say this morning, it’s that I’m having a hard time right now. I feel like my world is made up of shards of glass. And every step I take, no matter which direction I go, I’m at risk of getting hurt. Yesterday I had an hours long panic
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The anxiety is hitting hard tonight. And I don’t know where to put it. Last night was hard. It didn’t end how I wanted it to. The anxiety over my husband going back to work was too much. The stress of accepting (or not accepting) my new “normal” was too much. I drank way too
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8 years ago, I said yes to my best friend. And he said yes to me. One week ago today, the thought of seeing our 8th anniversary together was threatened, when a deer ran through his drivers side window and severely injured him. This year has been hell for us. We’ve had a lot thrown
Thriving and surviving. 8 years later. Read More »
These past few days, I’ve been struggling a lot with understanding and accepting what “normal” is now. I don’t think we’ve quite reached the place where the period of trauma and healing ends, and the new “normal” begins…but we’re getting closer. And I’m struggling to see what that might look like. My husband’s car is
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I’ve been in a pretty big funk since my husband got into his accident on Tuesday. He went through a trauma…but so did I. There are things I can’t unsee, can’t unhear, and can’t unfeel. I can’t talk about any of it with him, and everyone else has been pretty unavailable when it comes to
Unprocessed trauma, and all of these foreign feelings. Read More »
Yesterday morning was a completely normal morning. Until it wasn’t. Until it would become one of those moments that none of us would ever forget, that would have a forever long impact. I left my house at 7:15am. Dropped my 7 year old off at school at 7:31am. Got gas, I was on E. Continued
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This feeling? The loneliness and the sadness and the apathy and the irritability and hopelessness and fear…it’s depression. The wanting to sleep all the time…wanting to suddenly self medicate more than usual, the crying yourself to sleep at night because you feel alone and so trapped with your thoughts and feelings…it’s the depression. It’s always
