Me, every morning waking up after another long night – I’m ready to be sober. I don’t want to keep doing this. It’s killing me. Me, every night at around 7:30pm – Alcohol is all I have. I could never be sober. Why? Why does it have to be so hard? How can I be […]
Impossible and opposing thoughts Read More »
This whole summer break thing is just so not it. It’s been a week. And we’re all going insane. Having 3 kids not only just with physical disabilities…but also with 2 of them having pretty severe ADHD amongst other things…phew. It’s kicking my ass. Last night at like 8:55pm, I half jokingly, but half not,
Burnout, but no breaks in sight. Read More »
Yesterday morning, as I got in the car at 7:30am to take my son to PT, I was NOT greeted with the Bobby Bones show like I am every other morning. Instead, the normal radio broadcast was interrupted with livestream weather coverage of active and severe storms in our area. Storms are common enough where
Unexpected storms. Read More »
Don’t think, don’t block it out, don’t edit it or filter it. Just let it out. I have SO much running through my head lately that it hurts. I have so many thoughts that mean something, but then they just get lost halfway through and all tangled up and I can’t isolate anything anymore. My
A brain like a bowl of noodles, and slowing down to reconnect. Read More »
Well, my son graduated 1st grade yesterday. And while we’re all so very proud of him and how hard he’s working in school this year….. Ooof. All 3 of my kid being home together for really any amount of time is enough to make everyone in the house quickly suicidal. My 7 and 5 year
Day 1 of hell. I mean, summer vacation. Read More »
It has been one fire after another these past few days. And it’s taken every ounce of strength I have to get through it. But I’m here. I’m breathing. I’m surviving. Monday night was therapy. But Sunday, as you may know, was an absolute complete shit show. I didn’t want to go to therapy, not
Here, breathing, surviving. Read More »
I can’t even describe the shit show that yesterday turned into in ways that would make any kind of sense. Lack of communication was the root of it. Because it always is. Blood, anxiety and panic, and loneliness. That was the result. A lot of it. A lot of all of it. I feel like
I am in dire need of an immediate self care day. It’s been way too long since I’ve had anything that’s resembled self care, and I’m claiming today as my own. Now, I say this fully acknowledging that it probably won’t actually happen. But, still. I’m putting it out there, and I’m going to try
Claiming a self care day Read More »
It has been a long, long week. And I think I’m glad it’s almost over. Normally, Fridays are a more enjoyable weekday. The end of the week, the promise of the weekend soon to come, a less rigid schedule. Today is not that day. It’s giving some major Monday vibes, and honestly, I’m not here
Vulnerability hurts, and when the anger fades to sadness Read More »
Completely unfazed and blissfully happy, my 5 year old son just got taken back for his 3rd surgery of his short life. He knows what’s about to happen, we’ve talked through it all, and he’s ready for it. An hour and a half procedure to close 2, possibly 3 hernias. He doesn’t handle anesthesia well,
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