Trauma. Therapy. Emdr. Healing. Trust. These are all words used with great frequency in my life. All things I’m working on and living with. If you’ve been here for a while, like….years…you’ll know that I’ve tried, and failed epically, using emdr to heal from trauma. A lot of trauma. If you don’t know, emdr is […]
I’m just right. Just the right amount of broken. Just the right amount of fucked up. I’m just the right amount of imperfect. Of forgiving, of working towards the better. I’m just the right amount of holding on…and I’m just the right amount of letting go. Or, at least…I’m trying to be. I’m not who
You all know this weekend, at least here in America, is Mother’s Day. But what you very likely didn’t know, is that today, the Saturday before Mother’s Day, is known as Birth Mother’s Day. It’s a day specifically for birth moms, those that have placed a child for adoption. Every adoption and adoption journey looks
Heard, acknowledged, and not forgotten about. Read More »
Ya know that feeling where you have so much going on in your head and in your heart…and you’re just so desperate to talk to someone, to get it all out…to verbally explode the shit storm that’s been building up inside of you….but there’s no one there? That’s how I feel right now. Like, I
Where do you turn when there’s nowhere to turn? Read More »
I can think of few things that needed to happen as much as last night in therapy needed to happen. In case you’re new here, the only bit of context you might need is that my therapist and I have been working together for a loooong time. Like, 9-10 years. Every week. Sometimes twice a
Okay, therapist. I’ll let you in. Read More »
Sometimes, things get bad enough that you can’t ignore it anymore. You see the red flags, you know they’re coming…but are you strong enough (or smart enough) to stop it? I feel like I’m marching amongst a parade of red flags, laughing silently behind their backs that they won’t catch me. They won’t drag me
The back of my phone case boldly states that Healing is not linear. And no, it is not. Nothing about trauma or pain or past awful experiences fades quietly or easily into the background. Everyone deals with things differently, and there is no right or wrong when it comes to healing, or the timeline that
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Sometimes, life knocks you down. Over and over and OVER again. You try to get up, but it just keeps shoving you down. It’s relentless. Eventually, the blows stop. Or…they at least cease fire long enough for you to uncover your eyes and look around, stand up, and try again. So you pick yourself up.
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