I swear. Every time I think I’m up on some kind of success. Every time I string a couple of good days together. It doesn’t last too long…but a whole lot longer than I ever thought I’d be capable of achieving. And I should be proud of those moments. Of that string of hours. Or […]
Today was another day that started off at 5am for an early morning road trip to Dallas. The kids had yet another specialist appointment, but luckily, we made good time and didn’t get caught up in traffic. We make it home by 11:45, which definitely isn’t the worst day. I put my youngest down for
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Tomorrow I’ll start over. Tomorrow, I’ll drink less. I can try again tomorrow. I’ll do better. It will be a new starting point. Tomorrow will be day one. There’s always time. I don’t have to start right now. I already lost tonight. Stop fucking lying to yourself. Tomorrow will never come. You need to start
Yesterday started with the most abrupt of wake up calls at 5am when a nurse turned on the bright lights while my son and I were dead asleep. My two older sons had a sleep study in Dallas on Tuesday night, 2 hours away from our house. We left at 4pm to get there by
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When your motivation is like the weather, you can probably count on exactly nothing to have a significant or lasting change. According to the dictionary, motivation is described as: the reason or reasons one has for acting or behaving in a particular way. It can also be defined as: the general desire or willingness of someone to
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I feel like I’m in a helpless battle right now. A fight that I cannot win. And despite my own best efforts and incredible fight against these demons, I’m not coming out on top. Fear is winning. Insecurity is winning. Addiction is winning. I don’t know exactly what the most defining shift was, but I
Sometimes, the things we spend so long focusing on tend to do just the opposite. Fall out of focus. Like, you spend just so long prioritizing an issue or a problem, you put so much attention and focus on it…and progress stalls out. You don’t succeed as much as you’d have hoped or thought by
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Confidence is fleeting. Nothing more than a moment trying to convince you of your successes. Your potential successes. It’s great, it feels amazing…it makes you feel like you actually can do it. Confidence is the ingredient most integral to success. It really is. Until it’s gone. Until you’re triggered, until there’s nothing left. Drink significantly
The past 3 nights, I’ve tried doing things a bit differently than I have been doing like, for more than half of my life. And while it’s been absolutely brutal and painful and basically horrible in most every way, I’m still going to do it. At least for now. You know how I’ve been feeling
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I’m stronger than I give myself credit for. I can do the hardest things that I’ve been so convinced are impossible. I’m better than my demons, I’m stronger than they try to convince me I am. I can, and have overcome every obstacle thrown my way so far. And believe me, they’ve been significant. I’m
