Waking up this morning felt like I left the parts of myself required to be a functioning adult in yesterday. As soon as I woke up, I felt…off. Legitimately like I’m lacking something. A serious lacking of spoons? Depression? The burden of a long as hell week catching up with me? All of the above […]
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One year later, and absolutely nothing is the same. February 13th, 2024. Just 4 days after our family returned home from our trip to the NIH. Our lives would truly be changed forever. It was a Tuesday morning. I dropped the my oldest son off at school, a first grader just beginning his school career.
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I have so much racing through my mind and my heart. So much that I’m feeling, thinking…hoping for and afraid of. I feel so much. Yet, I don’t feel like I have any words. It happens occasionally, more often than I’d like…maybe twice a year or so. But I get this feeling. Like…I’m so broken.
Why? Why struggle when the outcome I so desperately want seems so far fetched, so far away? Why fight when the fight seems so freaking impossible to win? What are we doing here? Seriously, what are we doing here?! Let’s talk about it. Yes. We’re fighting. We’re fighting like hell. We want to win. We
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While nightmares have always been a hugely unfortunate part of my sleeping journey, sometimes they are worse and more frequent than others. Lately, the nightmares have been consuming a large part of my mental space. And last night, they were worse than ever. In a good dreamed turned awful, my birth son was there. He
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Here way are, on the 3rd day of a brand new year. A year which, according to THE DIME I got in my piece of New Years cake I got, should be my luckiest year yet. (And if you don’t know what I’m talking about, second half of this post from last year describes the
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2024, what can I say. You’ve been, by far, easily, without a doubt, the WORST year of my life. And as glad as I was to see you come, oh BOY am I ready to see you go. This chapter, this year, has been complete and utter bullshit. With every single member of my family
Well, in weird December fashion, here we are in Texas dealing with level 3 severe weather threats and tornados. Even though it’s Saturday and we should all be home, my mom (who works as a physical therapist in home health) was scheduled to work today. So she’ll be out driving in storms all over to
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To say that I’m still impacted from the two back to back car accidents that happened recently is an understatement. I have a lot of lingering anxieties and fears left from both of those accidents. Like, I can’t let anyone else drive. When me and my husband have to go somewhere, I drive now. Which
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When it rains, it pours. That’s what they say at least. And. Let. Me. Tell. You. Oooooh boy, the floodgates of hell itself have opened up, and not only is it raining, but it’s pouring down the most acidic, fiery and poisonous raindrops down onto my life. Let’s recap real quick. Just…real quick. What my
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