Well, I did it. I got through it. Was it every bit as brutal as I thought it would be? Erm, to be very honest, it was quite a bit worse. At least, the beginning of it was. Let’s back up. Last night I had my last therapy session in the office, the room, I’ve […]
Endings only lead to new beginnings Read More »
Despite my pleads with Sunday to please hang around an extra day….here we are. At the beginning of another Monday. This Monday in particular is one I’ve been dreading for quite some time now. Therapy has gone rather horribly the past few weeks. And while I’m sure there’s more than one contributing factor…the biggest one
Sometimes, things happen in life that feel really, really big. And they are big. But over time, it starts to feel less big. And less of a big deal. I’m sure that will happen with me in this situation as well…but I’m not there yet. Not even close. I really just didn’t have the emotional
One day, but not today. Read More »
Well, here we are again. Monday. This Monday is far from my favorite Monday simply because it’s atypical. It won’t end with therapy like all of my other Mondays do, it’s the last Monday of the summer before school starts, and it just feels so…off. I really wish that today was as it usually is,
When a room is more than a room Read More »
It’s no secret that this week has been a little bit of a tough one. In fact, I’d go so far as to say it was definitely my worst week in quite some time. The past few nights have been a little bit messy, not as relaxed or stress free as I’d have liked, and
Letting go of the burden of negative emotions Read More »
Wow. Well, I can say with complete certainty that therapy last night was absolute shit. Just…one of those bad night kind of nights. To be honest, it was halfway doomed for failure before we really even got started. Before anything was said, she let me know that we wouldn’t be having a session next week
To say that I’m still impacted from the two back to back car accidents that happened recently is an understatement. I have a lot of lingering anxieties and fears left from both of those accidents. Like, I can’t let anyone else drive. When me and my husband have to go somewhere, I drive now. Which
PTSD sucks, and healing isn’t easy Read More »
As always, therapy last night sure was something. I wasn’t bad. But it made me think about things. We talked a lot about being more mindful and more intentional, which, in my current state of ADHD actually kicking my ass, has been QUITE challenging lately. We talked about the drinking thing. And how I need
The power of suggestion? Read More »
I’m being avoidant. I can feel it. There are always those small little tells, the little things I do when I’m becoming avoidant, that I can either pick up on and act on, or continue to ignore. Avoiding people, avoiding meaningful conversation, avoiding completing tasks that need completing, avoiding responsibilities…it all just grows on itself
Taming the untamable: depression. Read More »
It really is interesting what’s happening inside of my brain right now. I don’t know why. Or…if it’s long lasting…or if it’s even real vs just being scared shitless about life as a whole….but here we are. On a weird journey that somehow has my striving to actually do better, be better, and feel better.
