I know the first question you have on your mind this morning is did she go to therapy last night in the middle of a hurricane on her 30th birthday? And the answer to that question is yes, yes I did. There was no world where I just couldn’t go. I couldn’t stay home and […]
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I’m honestly lost for words right now. My post is 13 hours later than it should be. Than I’d like it to be. All I can think about are song lyrics. Specifically the ones blasted at egregious volumes last night on my drive home from therapy. Which, if you’re wondering, did not go well. I
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Something absolutely crazy happened this morning. Ready for it? I dropped both of the big kids off at camp! 😳😳😳😳 Which means that I only have my 20 month old home with me. I am 2/3rds child free. For the first time in like…5 and a half years, I only have one kid with me.
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My week has been a series of rememberable and traumatic days and moments. Monday, terrible. Absolutely terrible. Just. No. Like, seriously the most memorable bad night in at least the past 8 years. The absolute and complete shit show that therapy was, then an hour later literally just dying? Still unclear if I was sick
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If only I could explain to you just how fucked up the past few days were. There’s no way I can talk about it or explain it in any kind of way that would make any kind of sense to you, but as far as Monday went, it was even more of a shit show
Unexpectedly bad. Then unexpectedly awful. Read More »
All in all, my week has not been awful. I made some big plans and some big changes. Most of them I’m excited about. However, all of that may change today, and I’m not entirely sure why. I’ve been told and warned that today is going to be a bad day for me. If I
I’d be lying if I said I didn’t have some massive anxiety about walking into therapy later tonight. It’s no secret that last week just did not at all go well. Which is fine! It’s fine. Not every week is going to be great or positive or easy. That’s not real life, that’s not how
I don’t have depression right now…I am depression. That’s how it feels. Like, this isn’t something that I have. Or that I’m currently feeling. It’s just what I am. I am blah. And dead inside. I have nothing to me anymore. No emotions. No good ones anyway. There’s nothing that sparks joy. Eating makes me
If you can imagine needing something sooo fucking badly. Just, with all of your body and soul and existence, needing something. Something to go well, something tangible, a feeling or an action….whatever it is that you need. And you have hopes. Not high ones….but….hope nonetheless. Well, that’s how I was feeling yesterday. With every ounce
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Another morning met with contempt. For myself, for how I feel, for both my bold choice of words lately, and yet still the filter they live behind. Tonight is Monday, which means it’s therapy night. And I have to tell you, I’m definitely feeling some type of way about it. I’m feeling on edge. And
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