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Irony

I didn’t get better fast enough, and now I’m feeling alarmingly worse. I wasn’t vulnerable enough, couldn’t feel secure fast enough. And now I don’t know if it will ever be possible to feel those things. Some things got better, but it wasn’t better enough. I was struggling, barely holding on. And it feels like …

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Innocence

This morning, I asked my 5 year old son “what would you do if you could plan a perfect day?” He smiled, not really sure why I was asking him, and threw the question back at me. “Hmm, well, I don’t know. What do you think?“ I told him I didn’t know. That he would …

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For people who suck at Valentine’s Day

It’s Valentine’s Day. A relatively useless day in general, but even more so when your wedding anniversary is less than 1 week later. Tonight my husband and I will do nothing more special than DoorDashing our favorite local Sushi place. I think it’s somewhat of a tradition we started years ago when we went there …

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“Good”

Today was “good”. I always put that word in quotation marks because really, what defines a good day? What makes it “good” for me might be completely unacceptable to someone else. I usually find that to be the case, that my “good” days are sort of like…“holy shit, that’s a low standard”. But today was…it …

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Is it possible to leave the past behind?

Five.Four.Three.Two.One. The ball drops and fireworks. Resolutions are made.People scream and people kiss and is it possible to change?Is it really truly possible to leave the past behind? Welcome to Midnight. We assign hope to many things. Each year, so many of us assign hope to this evening, to midnight, to welcoming in the New …

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