Step 1: Realize that you’re actually about to lose it. Step 2: Provide children with food. Full hands and full mouths will improve the situation. Step 3: Walk away. Don’t worry, they’ll follow you. They always do. But remember, their hands and mouths are busy. Step 4: Retreat into your own head, just for a […]
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Today I’m exhausted, more exhausted than usual. I had therapy early this morning. It was only for 1 hour, and it honestly wasn’t very difficult today. But I left there feeling even more exhausted. Even though if doesn’t feel hard, I think the mental load of what we’ve been doing is actually taking a larger
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How vulnerable is too vulnerable? Does that answer change based on audience? Location? Or even content? What’s the level of vulnerability I can honestly portray, before you, the reader, become uncomfortable? Start to cringe…scroll past without reading? That doesn’t just go for blogging…but writing or speaking in any sense. Who am I talking to, who
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There is so much going on in my life right now, and it can all be summed up by 1 word – complicated. Every single aspect of my life has been defined by me and everyone else as “complicated”. My kids health? COMPLICATED. My past and trying to come to grips with that all while
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un·be·com·ingadjective1. (of behavior) not fitting or appropriate; unseemly Oh, goodness. Guys, I’ll be the first one to tell you. My (almost) 5 year old is actually a hot mess. His IQ is somewhere between “I get it, you’re smarter than me” and “shut the heck up already”…. 🙃 But seriously. This child has a very
I wrote a post, tagged it, edited it…it took me hours to write. But I can’t publish it. Not tonight. I will tomorrow…but those words aren’t quite matching the feelings I have right now. I miss him. I just miss him so fucking much that it doesn’t make sense. It hurts. It hurts too much
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I should probably write even though I don’t want to. This won’t be eloquent or pretty… I don’t even know what this is going to say yet, or even how I feel. Therapy was 2 hours today. (It always is on Tuesdays, but I feel like it’s important to clarify that for context.) I’ve been
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Don’t you just love when you think the “hard part” of your day is over, only to realize it’s actually just begun? Yeah. That’s me today. I got the kids in bed, relieved because it was a looooong day. And I have not eaten all day, so I’m pretty hungry. But then I get a
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Can I just like…yell into the keyboard for a second here? (Heads up: I’m going to curse. I can’t be genuine if I’m filtering myself, and I just need to be real for a minute here.) Can we start with a small level of honesty? I’m sort of struggling. More than sort of. This shit
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Does this happen to anyone else? I could be sitting there, attempting to drown out the noise from the universe around me…trying to convince myself that I’m fine. That everything is fine. But then randomly, my face betrays me and starts leaking. (Damn allergies.) I’m just in the middle of watching a show, drinking my
