Month: October 2021

There is no pain like missing someone you might never see again.

I wrote a post, tagged it, edited it…it took me hours to write. But I can’t publish it. Not tonight. I will tomorrow…but those words aren’t quite matching the feelings I have right now. I miss him. I just miss him so fucking much that it doesn’t make sense. It hurts. It hurts too much …

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Pour another drink. No, I meant one more. No really, just one more. Okay, maybe another.

Here we are again. A night resembling so many others. Loneliness is the enemy. Self doubt and fear is the company. Alcohol is the constant….is the welcomed familiar. Alcohol is the mute button. Good ole Kraken. Coming to save to day. Or ruin it. Depending on perspective, of course. I say I’ll have one drink. …

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Hello, Sadness

Hey there, sadness. Today you win. I guess I have to recognize that. I’ll call you what you are instead of pretending you don’t exist. I won’t call you anger or anything else when I know that isn’t really true. It’s hard to keep up with you sometimes, sadness. You put some pretty big demands …

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Dear Husband, I’m sorry for the past year.

I owe you an apology. Probably more than one. While you have certainly had your share of flaws and missteps along the way…this post is not about that. This past year…really the past 2 years now…have been the ugliest of my life. They’ve been brutal. You’ve seen the worst of me, you’ve picked me up …

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Why am I sad?

Does this happen to anyone else? I could be sitting there, attempting to drown out the noise from the universe around me…trying to convince myself that I’m fine. That everything is fine. But then randomly, my face betrays me and starts leaking. (Damn allergies.) I’m just in the middle of watching a show, drinking my …

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