It’s been a rough 24 hours. And the later it gets into the night, the more I’m allowing myself to feel it. I was actually in the middle of writing my tomorrow post. A little behind the scenes for you, I like to have my posts for the day done by 8:30am at the latest. …
Will you feed my depression with chocolate and coffee and hugs? Read More »
You know those nights that you can just…..predict where they’re going to go? Somewhere around 5pm today, that happened. I knew exactly where this night was going to go, and I asked my husband to help prevent that. Earlier in the day, he got frustrated with me. Me, already being sensitive, thought “oh great, he’s …
Today was a rough day. That’s okay, that happens sometimes. My body has not been feeling its best self physically, my emotions are all over the place… It’s just been rough. In more ways than one. It’s nights like these, where I’m feeling a little bit extra fragile, that I need to…..be careful of. I’m …
Self medicating sucks. Until it doesn’t. And then it does again. Read More »
Even now, in the “best I’ve felt in years”, coming off a high of 2 vacations back to back, I’m struggling. Even now, after a day that wasn’t all bad. A day that had its moments of hope and promise…I’m struggling. Struggling means a lot of different things for me. Sometimes, it means the most …
Tonight is hard. Today was hard. The last 2 weeks have been hard. Tonight might be the hardest. My husband and I got really bad news today. While multiple states and hours apart physically, we both got absolutely devastating news. I’m trying to lift him up. He’s trying to….idk. He feels badly. And wants desperately …
“I’ll be fine, I always am.” That’s the single most me quote that there is. I’ll be fine, I always am. …… I say it when I’ve perhaps gotten a little too real, a little too vulnerable, and I want to walk it back. I say it when I need sarcasm to lighten up a …
Do you ever just want to give up? Want to give in? Want to conform, want to adhere? Want to live up to societal standards of “the norm”? But just… can’t? Are you ever just so fucking sick of hiding yourself that you just………can’t anymore? Except for that face that you still have to? That’s …
Yesterday, I traveled back from my retreat weekend and returned home. It was a rough day. I was fighting back the tears all day long, and I should’ve seen what happened next coming. My husband picked me up from the airport, and we got home around 7pm. I jumped in the shower and did laundry, …
I had a hard day, but I kept it together. My husband came home early from work, he got me Starbucks and Auntie Anne’s (2 of my favorites), and made me feel loved. I texted my birth sons parents, and they made me feel loved and appreciated. And I got through the day. Then, the …
Suddenly, the world feels a million pounds heavier. Everything is building up, nothing can get done. Things are getting harder and harder and harder. Thoughts are becoming darker and darker and darker. Things are going on that I don’t know how to get into. Like, despite the fact that I asked, I reached out, I …