I don’t think I’ve ever gone more than 2 days without writing…so I figured I’d force myself to sit down right now and do it. It’s been a chaotic week. At no point, has it gotten any easier. I feel like I’m at my breaking point. I spent most of today in appointments and doctors …
When the anxiety is so palpable, you can hear nothing but your own heartbeat inside of your ears. Your chest feels like it’ll very likely explode with the next way too strong beat. You don’t want to drink more. You know that won’t help! But it does……..until it doesn’t. Until you take it too far. …
It’s been a rough 24 hours. And the later it gets into the night, the more I’m allowing myself to feel it. I was actually in the middle of writing my tomorrow post. A little behind the scenes for you, I like to have my posts for the day done by 8:30am at the latest. …
Will you feed my depression with chocolate and coffee and hugs? Read More »
This morning started off in very atypical fashion…but will now become part of our weekly routine. A few weeks ago, we switched my 6 year old son’s therapist. We’ve been trying to get in with this particular therapist for a little while, but when we were first looking, she didn’t have any openings. Fast forward …
When I woke up yesterday, I was so excited it was Friday. As you may or may not know by now, Friday is the one day of the week that I don’t have any standing appointments. Often, I’ll schedule doctor appointments on Fridays, but not always. My excitement for my “quieter than normal day” quickly …
Sick babies, cozy cuddles, and worst case scenarios. Read More »
Today was harder than it should’ve been. I’ll detail that more tomorrow, I promise. But today was hard. I got through it…we got through it. It didn’t end it tragedy. It didn’t end tragically. Yet, I’m still struggling. Today was triggering. My son’s health was seriously jeopardized. He’s fine. It’s fine. He’s safe. But I …
After nearly 6 hours of driving, an hour and a half of actual face time with the doctor, and 1 and a half blowouts…we made it home late on Tuesday night, with probably more questions than answers. It boils down to “it’s complicated”. There’s no clear path when it comes to our family and our …
Today is the day I’ve been dreading. The day we take our 12 month old to Dallas for his super big important emergency appointment to see our neuromuscular doctor. She’s worked with our family for a good few years, and she’s pretty much the head doctor in their care. Remember, we have a super weird …
Ah, yes. Another Monday that starts with an 8am doctor appointment. To be honest, most days lately begin this way. Such is the life when you have 3 special needs kids, I suppose. Mondays are typically my busiest day of the week, with constant driving and appointments and back and forth…but they always end in …
Sometimes, life gets rough. And it gets you down. And it can be incredibly hard to keep going and keep fighting when it seems like everything that happens, ends poorly. That’s how it’s felt for me lately. Everything is hard. Everything I do is wrong. These things just keep happening. Truly horrible things. My newly …
Finding the wins, even when they’re hard to find. Read More »