For the first time since before Christmas, this is a Monday that truly feels like a Monday. Between holidays and the flu and winter storms, Mondays have been weird for a while now. But this morning finally feels…normal. And honestly, I’m happy to see it. It’s a rainy day…my favorite kind of day, and I’m […]
Running our own race Read More »
It’s that time again…that magical hour I seem to get once or twice a week of complete solitude. When no one is left in the house but me and the dogs. And, oh, is that so very much my favorite hour. No one needs me, no one is talking or making noise or crying or
Self care…wherever you can find it Read More »
This morning is another surgery day. This time, for our 5 year old. It isn’t his first, and he’s more upset about having to be hungry (fast) than of being in the hospital. He’s having his adenoids taken out and his nose cauterized. He can literally never breathe, and we’re hoping this helps. His adenoids
Surgery days are hard Read More »
Yesterday, Phoenix turned 5 years old. I don’t usually recycle words, but I do think I said it best yesterday. To my wild one, the child with more personality than should be allowed to exist in one single body, the most literal and hilarious person I’ve ever met, the child with ZERO filter…and the sweetest
Lately, therapy has been basically exactly what I’ve needed it to be…even when I don’t know what it is that I really need. My life is intense. And getting…more intense. At one point, I just said something along the lines of “I need more help. Or support. Or a long break from all of this”.
You can only suppress your feelings for so long. Read More »
Yesterday, I gave myself the seemingly very impossible task of completing the 60 pages of paperwork that was sent to me by the NIH to complete. Well, I did it. I buckled down and focused, and I did all 60 pages of it. I kicked my husband and kids out so I could focus, and
Accepting what is, even if it sucks. Read More »
Last night before bed, I boldly proclaimed to my husband that I’m not doing a single thing until the 60 pages worth of paper work that was sent to me is completely filled out and sent off. 2 weeks ago, I got a call and was told that our family was officially accepted by the
Unexpected triggers, but getting it done anyway Read More »
I don’t think I’ve ever gone more than 2 days without writing…so I figured I’d force myself to sit down right now and do it. It’s been a chaotic week. At no point, has it gotten any easier. I feel like I’m at my breaking point. I spent most of today in appointments and doctors
Always a fire to put out Read More »
When the anxiety is so palpable, you can hear nothing but your own heartbeat inside of your ears. Your chest feels like it’ll very likely explode with the next way too strong beat. You don’t want to drink more. You know that won’t help! But it does……..until it doesn’t. Until you take it too far.
If I leave first, you can’t hurt me Read More »
It’s been a rough 24 hours. And the later it gets into the night, the more I’m allowing myself to feel it. I was actually in the middle of writing my tomorrow post. A little behind the scenes for you, I like to have my posts for the day done by 8:30am at the latest.
Will you feed my depression with chocolate and coffee and hugs? Read More »
