This entire week has been, if nothing else, a truly unforgettable week. For about a hundred different reasons. While I’m not yet ready to recap it completely, today is our last full day here. It consists of a good bit more testing, labs, EMGSs and EKGs. And who knows what else. Yesterday was hard. Every […]
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Procrastination has a way of sneaking up on you. You might think you’re good, have plenty of time, ahead of the game…and then you very quickly realize just how wrong you were. I’m flying with all 3 of my kids in 37 hours. So, a day and a half. I only just began packing. Why?
Slowly but surely, we get there. Read More »
Hurt is….it’s an interesting concept. And it means a lot of different things. Physically, emotionally, different levels and layers of it….. I guess it could best be described as an onion. Layers and levels and varying degrees of pain. The past few days…I have been HURT. With a capital H, and all the others capital
Hurt. But how do you proceed? Read More »
We are officially one week away from our big important trip to the NIH. That pretty much means that now is the time to stop procrastinating, and put it into focus. I have to pack. And prepare. Mentally and physically. I’ve never flown with 3 kids before. Actually, I’ve only ever flown with one kid
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This post ends up going a lot of places that I didn’t expect to talk about. It’s a hard one…but a good one. It’s been a “snow day” kind of week here in Texas. And by that, I mean, it got really cold. And sort of snowed. And the state shut down. No work, no
Feelings, feelings, feelings. And snow days. Read More »
Normal. adjective 1. Confirming to a standard; usual, typical, or expected. Yesterday was…a good…normal…day. I’m extraordinarily hesitant to define it as such, because normalcy is just such a craved and foreign phenomenon around here. And, in fact, it was such a weird day, that it couldn’t POSSIBLY be defined as “normal”. My oldest son stayed
When “normal” isn’t normal. Read More »
This week has been challenging in more ways than one. And quite frankly, I’m ready for everything to go back to “normal”. Anytime my oldest son is home from school…..it basically turns the entire time into a nightmare. An expected nightmare, but a nightmare nonetheless. Just the constant fighting and yelling and taking and all
A week of challenges. And what do I value? Read More »
How dare this day make me leave my bed. I mean, seriously. Is it so unreasonable for me to just stay in the safety and warmth of my bed all day? This is my husbands first day back at work since my son had surgery last Thursday. So, in almost a week. Making today the
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Monday nights have been Monday nights for about as long as I can remember. They’ve been mine. They’ve been therapy nights. The very few hours a week I have all to myself. To process. To feel. To…everything. As unpredictable as life, and the very nature of therapy is…it was nice to come home to consistency
Lately, therapy has been basically exactly what I’ve needed it to be…even when I don’t know what it is that I really need. My life is intense. And getting…more intense. At one point, I just said something along the lines of “I need more help. Or support. Or a long break from all of this”.
You can only suppress your feelings for so long. Read More »