This week has been challenging in more ways than one. And quite frankly, I’m ready for everything to go back to “normal”. Anytime my oldest son is home from school…..it basically turns the entire time into a nightmare. An expected nightmare, but a nightmare nonetheless. Just the constant fighting and yelling and taking and all […]
A week of challenges. And what do I value? Read More »
How dare this day make me leave my bed. I mean, seriously. Is it so unreasonable for me to just stay in the safety and warmth of my bed all day? This is my husbands first day back at work since my son had surgery last Thursday. So, in almost a week. Making today the
The most Monday Wednesday that there’s ever been Read More »
Monday nights have been Monday nights for about as long as I can remember. They’ve been mine. They’ve been therapy nights. The very few hours a week I have all to myself. To process. To feel. To…everything. As unpredictable as life, and the very nature of therapy is…it was nice to come home to consistency
Lately, therapy has been basically exactly what I’ve needed it to be…even when I don’t know what it is that I really need. My life is intense. And getting…more intense. At one point, I just said something along the lines of “I need more help. Or support. Or a long break from all of this”.
You can only suppress your feelings for so long. Read More »
Did you know that the maximum volume of a 2023 Kia Carnival is only 45? And did you know, that in the throws of pretty extreme emotional distress, 45 is not nearly loud enough? Now, I’ve had some tough drives home from therapy. Drives when the music just HAS to be louder than the thoughts
All I can do is try. And keep trying. Read More »
When you go to therapy long enough, a funny thing happens. You start realizing things. You start understanding things about yourself a little bit more, you start recognizing that the things you do that you thought were harmless, just might not be. And you start to be able to recognize these patterns on your own…eventually…without
When therapy is helpful, even outside of the therapy room. Read More »
If you’ve been hanging around here for a while, you’re probably quite familiar with therapy Mondays. But. Have you ever heard of …. Therapy Sunday?!?! That’s right! This weekend also consisted of surprise therapy! Granted, not with my therapist, but my kids. She wanted to meet with me and my husband without the kids, and
When the rain and coffee brings comfort Read More »
“She’s insane!!!!!” I say very loudly and very matter of factly as I leave therapy late last night. But …who am I referring to? My therapist?!?!? Surely not. SURELY, she isn’t insane. Otherwise, why would I spend at least 2 hours a week talking to her, trying to overcome life’s biggest obstacles and challenges? Of
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In typical Monday fashion, today is just FULL of appointments. After I drop my oldest off at school, the baby will (finally) start his new therapy for swallowing! It’s basically like e-stim on his neck and it should help him have an overall stronger swallow. We’re running hard and fast towards him getting a gtube,
The ugly anticipation of vulnerability Read More »
Well, yesterday went about as well and true to form as it could have possibly gone. I am happy to report that both of my children were EXACTLY, 100% themselves yesterday when their therapist came to our house. Chaos ensued as promised, and boy did she get a glimpse into the reality of my every
When things go exactly as expected, and the unknowns of the future Read More »