Step 1: Realize that you’re actually about to lose it. Step 2: Provide children with food. Full hands and full mouths will improve the situation. Step 3: Walk away. Don’t worry, they’ll follow you. They always do. But remember, their hands and mouths are busy. Step 4: Retreat into your own head, just for a […]
A How To guide on not breaking down in front of your kids: Read More »
So, not that this bothers me at all, obviously, but it’s November now. “Adoption awareness month”, or whatever we want to label it. I knew it in the back of my mind on the 1st. I knew it front and center by the second. Another reason to hate November. As a whole, I don’t dislike
Have I mentioned that it’s November? Read More »
I don’t like this picture. But it’s also my favorite. It’s a telling picture, to say the least. It’s not an attractive photo of me by any means, I look exhausted at best. But it’s one that means the most to me. What you can’t see from this angle is his little hand. He’s reaching
Love is the most healing force on the planet. Read More »
What do you do when no matter how hard you try, no matter how much work it seems like you put in…at the end of the day…it just doesn’t seem worth it? Like…I’m fucking struggling. I don’t want this! I don’t want the pain and I honestly don’t feel like I deserve it. Or maybe
Earlier this week my (almost) 5 year old said something really meaningful to me. It was nearing bedtime, by far the most stressful part of the day for me. Neither him nor my (almost) 3 year old were listening particularly well, and I was definitely starting to get frustrated with them. My son recognized that
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My brain and my body, the physical vs the mental. Always at war, fighting with the other. My body is usually the one telling my brain to slow down, it’s usually the smart one. It reads our signals, our pain, and let’s us know it’s time to pay attention. Something I’m just not good at
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Today I’m exhausted, more exhausted than usual. I had therapy early this morning. It was only for 1 hour, and it honestly wasn’t very difficult today. But I left there feeling even more exhausted. Even though if doesn’t feel hard, I think the mental load of what we’ve been doing is actually taking a larger
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How vulnerable is too vulnerable? Does that answer change based on audience? Location? Or even content? What’s the level of vulnerability I can honestly portray, before you, the reader, become uncomfortable? Start to cringe…scroll past without reading? That doesn’t just go for blogging…but writing or speaking in any sense. Who am I talking to, who
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There is so much going on in my life right now, and it can all be summed up by 1 word – complicated. Every single aspect of my life has been defined by me and everyone else as “complicated”. My kids health? COMPLICATED. My past and trying to come to grips with that all while
How do you tell a story when you don’t even understand it? Read More »
Hey, you. (Yes, please do read that exactly how you think You should.) I’m not sure if you know this, but then again you probably do. I struggle a lot with vulnerability and honesty, and with actually being open with how I feel. You know this. Honestly, you know me the best out of probably
To my best friend: I’m sorry about that one night. Read More »
