Well, turns out, I had a bit of a rough weekend. And that’s left me feeling like sort of a failure. It wasn’t a bad weekend, per se, but it was exhausting. I was “on” all weekend, and never got a chance to rest and relax. So that’s pretty much left me exhausted and falling […]
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If it’s not one thing it’s another. Alcohol turns to pills turns to….whatever else it turns to. The addict brain doesn’t discriminate in the ways that one may alter it. Escape this…sobering feeling. Escape, escape, escape. Can’t be stuck with myself, not with my thoughts or my feelings or my emotions. Anything to escape. Chasing
Year 28. Much like last year, coming into my 28th year looks a lot different than I thought it would. Year 27 was…..brutal. It was probably one of the worst years to date. And trust me, I’ve had a lot of bad years. Like many years throughout my life, the beginning of last year started
It’s the last few hours of my 27th year alive. To be honest, a birthday is just another day on the calendar, a position in space and time…nothing to make a big deal of. Unless, of course, you choose to. I always sarcastically make a big deal out of my birthday. When you’re the youngest
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Here’s something I haven’t gone on record and said much over the past few months: therapy actually went really well last night. I wish I knew the difference, I wish I knew what caused the good vs the less than good sessions…but since I don’t, I’ll just accept it as they come and be appreciative
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When my husband and I got married, we made promises to love each other no matter what. Through whatever life threw our way. That’s what you do when you get married, you promise to love the other person no matter what. You promise to love them in good time and bad times…. In sickness, and
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Here in good ole America, it’s the 4th of July. A day you celebrate independence and freedom…or whatever. Current thoughts on that aside…yesterday, I was watching my son and really thinking about what that means, what independence means. I was watching my 5 year old son play outside yesterday and he started getting frustrated and
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That’s the thought that’s rattling around in my head this morning. Remember why you’re here, remember why you’re fighting. It can be so, so easy to forget why. And to give in to the never ending, negative, intrusive thoughts. It’s hard to fight when you’re just so fucking tired of it all. But it’s in
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My birthday is next Friday, which I’m honesty a little bit excited for. I very sarcastically make a big deal out of my birthday every year and hope my husband comes through in making me feel special. Honestly, he usually does a pretty good job. It just feels like the one and only day of
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