Well, I won’t lie, I’m really struggling today. I don’t know if it’s the effects of not having therapy this week, of it just being an incredibly long week, or just life catching up to me in general…. But I feel like complete shit. I think something really triggering happened this morning too, and although […]
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Another fucked up nightmare, come to grace me with its presence. I’m never sure which is worse, the nightmares of my dreams, or the nightmares of my reality. They both come around to haunt me when it’s their time. I’m just a failure born to lose. This fight was never mine to win. Not alone,
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Another day that starts with a doctor appointment. To be honest, today is not my favorite day. It’s the day I consider to be the worst day of pregnancy….glucose testing day. UGH. I’m not allowed to eat until after I drink that drink and get my blood drawn, and I’m starving. I’d seriously rather go
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Lately, I’ve been finding myself in an interesting predicament. I make no secret about the fact that I don’t like myself, and that I basically hate everything about me….but…what does it mean if your child is exactly like you? My 5 year old is…well, he’s really something. Over the past year, more and more, he’ll
When you don’t like yourself…but your kid is just like you. Read More »
Dear son, It’s just a random Tuesday in early August. There’s no holiday, no birthday coming up…no special date to remark of. Just another day. Yet still, I think of you. I think of you always. Literally, every single day. There isn’t a day that goes by, I promise you…not one…where I don’t think of
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Oooh boy. I am having quite a lot of feelings in a week that it’s not great to have this many feelings. Typically, I “pride” myself on being a very…unemotional person. Outwardly, at least. (There’s actually nothing prideful about this, it’s much better to feel your feelings.) I keep my cards close and my heart
