Guys, I have to say it. I am pretty damn impressed with myself with how accurately I predicted therapy would go with both my mom and my dad. When my dad came a few weeks ago, it was rough and brutal and just so non productive because all he did was tell me everything horrible […]
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Monday is here as scheduled, and once again, it promises to be a long one. Early this morning, Atlas has his first appointment with a new kind of therapy. It’s called Vital Stim, and basically, it’s where they put electrodes on his neck to assist him with swallowing, and to hopefully help him strengthen those
Another busy Monday, but I’m here for it. Read More »
Today was a bad day. Straight up, point blank. A bad day. It did not go the way I hoped it would, in fact, this entire week has not gone the way I thought it would. My husband and I got into an argument again, mostly because of communication (and his extreme lack there of),
When you don’t handle conflict the same way, anxiety, and some self hatred. Read More »
Today, all I want to happen is to allow myself to have a break, some down time, or maybe even an actual day off. Countless times, I have told my husband that “I wish I could just have the time to be properly depressed, lay in bed and do nothing for a while”. It’s been
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Have you ever noticed that a large majority of parenting is really just glueing or taping things back together? Today alone, I’ve glued a wooden snowman back together (his hat came off), a wooden rocket ship, the handle on my sons FAVORITE Spiderman water bottle that he absolutely can’t have broken, and taped a paper
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How many times do you go to write a post, give it a title, start writing it, think of a better, more accurate title, delete what you’ve written, and start over? Usually it happens when I start writing with a filter. And it feels so fucking fake, I can’t stand it. And want to be
He’s 51 weeks old. That means that next week, in 7 days…he turns one. And that’s a day I have been dreading for weeks now. More than likely, he’s my last. Our last baby, our last first birthday…and I hate it all so much. I’ve put off planning a party. Buying decorations. Coming up with
Today was a rough day. That’s okay, that happens sometimes. My body has not been feeling its best self physically, my emotions are all over the place… It’s just been rough. In more ways than one. It’s nights like these, where I’m feeling a little bit extra fragile, that I need to…..be careful of. I’m
Self medicating sucks. Until it doesn’t. And then it does again. Read More »
Last night was one of the most necessary therapy sessions I’ve had in a while. After last week, where my dad came and boldly voiced his (highly negative) opinion of me for 2 hours straight, I really needed a session for myself to just…talk about that. My mom will be coming next week, and that’ll
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I’ve been blogging here on WordPress for a good few years now. And in those 3ish(?) years, I’ve learned a lot of things. I’ve learned about myself, I’ve learned about other people and their stories, both similar to mine and completely different. But the thing that’s made the biggest impact is the actual, genuine, real
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