It’s been a rough 24 hours. And the later it gets into the night, the more I’m allowing myself to feel it. I was actually in the middle of writing my tomorrow post. A little behind the scenes for you, I like to have my posts for the day done by 8:30am at the latest. […]
Will you feed my depression with chocolate and coffee and hugs? Read More »
“She’s insane!!!!!” I say very loudly and very matter of factly as I leave therapy late last night. But …who am I referring to? My therapist?!?!? Surely not. SURELY, she isn’t insane. Otherwise, why would I spend at least 2 hours a week talking to her, trying to overcome life’s biggest obstacles and challenges? Of
Therapy and it’s unexpected moments Read More »
In typical Monday fashion, today is just FULL of appointments. After I drop my oldest off at school, the baby will (finally) start his new therapy for swallowing! It’s basically like e-stim on his neck and it should help him have an overall stronger swallow. We’re running hard and fast towards him getting a gtube,
The ugly anticipation of vulnerability Read More »
My husband and I are FAR from perfect. Just the other night, for instance, we got into a rather huge (or so it felt to me) …not argument…just more of an …uncomfortable experience…..where we were both uncomfortable talking about the health and future of our 12 month old son. I met my husband almost 9
What defines success anyway? Read More »
Well, yesterday went about as well and true to form as it could have possibly gone. I am happy to report that both of my children were EXACTLY, 100% themselves yesterday when their therapist came to our house. Chaos ensued as promised, and boy did she get a glimpse into the reality of my every
When things go exactly as expected, and the unknowns of the future Read More »
If you’ve ever lived a life of chaos…of noise and people and more noise and just LITERALLY complete and utter chaos…you might feel like I do, and be hesitant to welcome people into your home. Well, a few days ago, I received this email from my kids therapist. So…a therapist I’ve known for a relatively
Welcome to the chaos Read More »
Well, for the night I had last night, I woke up in a surprisingly good mood. Like, it’s actually kind of shocking, and I’m super confused by it, but….a win is a win? Yesterday was a little bit hard, but it ended with therapy, which went really well. It was mostly just me talking for
Yeah, I got this. And all the tiny wins. Read More »
I’ve never been happier to see a Monday than I am today. For some reason, it’s just felt like Monday couldn’t come fast enough this week. Monday night is my therapy night, and sometimes it just really feels like that’s all I have. Like it’s the only thing that gets me through the week. I’ve
Monday isn’t the enemy, and a bad gut feeling. Read More »
A Sunday night after an impossibly long week. Thankfully, I found a few hours here and there over the course of my chaotic weekend to have some moments of quiet for myself. Thankfully, I have a husband who recognizes my NEED for alone time…without the background noise of 3 boys yelling and screaming…either playfully or
When the darkness comes creeping in Read More »
Dear my introvert self, I know you’re hurting. I know you feel unseen. Unheard. Ignored. These past few weeks have been chaos, long, and with so, so much forced interaction. With both familiar faces…and brand new. Most good, but all draining. Your weekends, once your safe space, your time of recharge, and the reset you
Dear introvert, I’m sorry Read More »
