Well…you know what I always say. My life will never be boring. I will always have something to talk about, something crazy going on. And oh, how this held true yesterday. Yesterday morning, my 15lb dog, Calvin, decided he wanted to ✨spice✨ up my day. He had some help from my 2 year old, but […]
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This morning started off bright and early at 5am with an out of nowhere panic attack. Love that for me. Funny how these keep happening on Fridays. Every other Friday is pay day. Which normally is great. Except now these paychecks are spent before they even hit. And we’re in this cycle of things just
5am panic attacks, and finding ways to be grateful. Read More »
Once again, here we are in Texas with well below freezing temps, waiting on yet another snow/ice storm to grace us with its presence this week. I’m not mad about it, the born and raised Long Islander was built for this and it finally feels right for my body temperature wise here. I’m still having
Venting about venting, and I’m so glad it’s winter Read More »
I spent all morning this morning writing a blog post that I’m honestly pretty proud of. It took a long time, and I poured a lot of heart into it. It’s completely finished, titled and tags and all. So why not post it yet? I don’t know. Something still felt too scary about it. I
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Well here we sit on this lovely-ish Thursday morning in Texas just waiting for the snow to fall. It’s unclear just how much snow vs. ice vs. rain/sleet we’ll actually get…all we know is there is a LOT of precipitation heading for us and the temps are right at 33° right now, and supposed to
A snowy(?) Texas Thursday…? Read More »
Last night was quite a different night than I feel like I’ve had in months. For the first time I think since literally September…I didn’t want to drink last night. I made one drink, drank it slower than usual, and just really had no desire for any more. So I didn’t have more. We went
Are the tides turning? Read More »
While nightmares have always been a hugely unfortunate part of my sleeping journey, sometimes they are worse and more frequent than others. Lately, the nightmares have been consuming a large part of my mental space. And last night, they were worse than ever. In a good dreamed turned awful, my birth son was there. He
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Here way are, on the 3rd day of a brand new year. A year which, according to THE DIME I got in my piece of New Years cake I got, should be my luckiest year yet. (And if you don’t know what I’m talking about, second half of this post from last year describes the
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2024, what can I say. You’ve been, by far, easily, without a doubt, the WORST year of my life. And as glad as I was to see you come, oh BOY am I ready to see you go. This chapter, this year, has been complete and utter bullshit. With every single member of my family
Dear anything, While I don’t know exactly what I need from you right now, I do know that it’s something. Anything. I need anything to keep going. An ounce of hope. A reason to believe things will be okay… An iota of stress being taken off my plate. Things are only getting more and more
