Do you ever just want to give up? Want to give in? Want to conform, want to adhere? Want to live up to societal standards of “the norm”? But just… can’t? Are you ever just so fucking sick of hiding yourself that you just………can’t anymore? Except for that face that you still have to? That’s …
Tonight, like so many nights from the past, has me sitting on my bathroom floor, alone, drinking, while my husband is asleep in bed. It’s not that late. It’s only 10ish pm at the start of this writing. (Which speaks nothing of the potential end of this writing. Because as I get ready to post …
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Last night was…something. It was a night that looked like a lot of nights my husband and I have had in the past. Where alcohol played too much of a role, and I said a lot of things that I’ve been holding in for a while. It started when I got upset with my husband. …
Well, in typical Monday fashion (and every day lately) my morning, once again, started way too early at 4:30am. Ugh. When your kids, who, theoretically are old enough to know better, continuously wake you up way too early in the morning (between 3 and 5am) every single day….it can be really hard to get past …
Every now and then, you have a night that inspires progress. Last night was one of those nights. Also known as…a hard night. The kind of night where the alcohol hit hard, and my brain and body just kind of…turned off. The weird thing is, I didn’t drink that much more than usual. But I …
Today was one of those days that just started off horribly. I woke up abruptly from a nightmare, to a real life nightmare. At least, that’s what it felt like. Yesterday we had some horrible storms and massive flooding in our area. Yet, I still had to drive my son to school, and my other …
Yesterday, I was sad. And since it’s springtime…the only obvious solution was to buy some more baby chicks. This is something I do every year, and plan for ahead of time…but yesterday was a spur of the moment decision. I already have 15 coming at the end of May…so it’s not like I wasn’t already …
Well, we made it to Monday. We got through the weekend and now we’re here. I don’t mind Mondays so much anymore because usually my oldest son is back at school (except today he is still home), and I end my day with therapy. I’m looking forward to therapy tonight because it’s one of those …
I had therapy this morning, and even though I had a really rough week, it definitely went well. It’s a good thing my husband and I got in a fight that completely dysregulated me and freaked me out over the weekend. (Kidding, but also sort of not.) Anyway, it started off the same way it …
I’ll be honest, as far as weekends go, this one was a pretty horrible one. Saturday during the day was actually okay. My husband took the 2 older boys out for a little bit during the day, and when he came home, he brought me a special dinner and gelato for me and the kids. …