You and I are living stories. We all are. Everyone has parts of their story that they don’t like, pages and chapters they wish they could erase. It becomes hard to live in the present, and we frequently try to go back. To relive the past, to do it over. But within that same story, …
My heart is heavy. A few days ago, driving home from therapy actually, I leaned that one of the (many) children I know, had died. Someone asked me “what happened?” Nothing happened. It was his time. He was on hospice, he was declining, but it hurts. I’m not his family…but I am within his community. …
Your heart is bound to break when you live in the special needs world Read More »
Have you ever wondered what a random snapshot of your day would look like to an onlooker? How would you feel if someone was granted access to a very short, but random part of your day? Something like that happened to me today. My doctors office called me, but I missed the call because I …
I don’t know why I so often downplay things. I try to act like things are better than they are, that I feel better than I really do…that I’m okay. But more often than not, I’m not so okay. I don’t know why I, and I think a lot of us, feel the need to …
My husband took my kids to the park the other day. While they were there, there was one other boy with his mom. If you don’t know, both of my boys have a very rare form of muscular dystrophy, and have a variety of medical equipment for each of them. The boy at the park …
Sometimes, something happens in your life that is so big, so painful, so thought consuming…whatever it is, it’s huge. To you, it feels like everything. It could be an anniversary, a traumatic event, a breakup, a loss, whatever it is, to you, it’s everything. It feels like the biggest thing in the world. When it …
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As much as I wish I could successfully ignore things, as much as I wish I could just…wish the pain away, sometimes you just can’t. Sometimes shit just sucks and there’s really not much anyone can do about it. That’s where I’m at now. Right now in my life, shit just plain old sucks. And …
Sometimes things just suck, and there’s nothing you can do. Read More »
“You’re future is worth sticking around for”. That’s the quote on my calendar this month. I laughed when I saw it. July is my birthday month, next week actually. I’m not a fan of my birthday, I’ve never been sold on the idea of celebrating me. I’ve never seen myself as worthy of celebrating. Not …
In my senior year of high school, things had pretty much gone to shit. I had decided I was done. The pain was too much, the grief, life had gotten the best of me. I knew I needed help, I knew I wasn’t long for this world if things didn’t change. Simply put, I was …
In April 2011, when I was 16 years old, I created a blog. It grew rather large, and the first post was titled “who am I?” It only felt right, 10 years and 2 months later, to begin in similar fashion. Who I was then vs. who I am now is both very much the …