emotions

Turns out, I’m not responsible for your feelings.

Another shocking revelation, courtesy of therapy, is that I’m not responsible for your feelings. And, no, you aren’t responsible for mine either. This is a concept that honestly, I don’t fucking understand. Hear me out. If you kill my dog, I will be very sad and very hurt. You did this. You killed my dog. …

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The validity of pain

Sometimes I feel like I don’t deserve to feel. Like I haven’t earned the right to be upset, or grieve or feel loss or pain or hurt. I always feel like my pain isn’t valid. Or that it isn’t big enough or real enough, or anything like that. I always look for others to validate …

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When the pain just doesn’t end

I’d rather die than keep missing him like this. I’m sorry, I know that’s a harsh start to a post…but it’s true. I’d rather die than live without him. He’s literally my child, and I’m navigating this world without him. And that just…..it doesn’t make any sense. It’s only getting harder. He’ll be 8 this …

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Losing my voice

I feel like I’m losing my voice. I’m struggling with what to say, what to write, or even what to feel. I feel so broken and useless. I’m pushing people away and shutting down. It’s the worst place to be in. I hate this feeling..the feeling of losing my voice and my identity. The only …

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