Today was a bad day. Straight up, point blank. A bad day. It did not go the way I hoped it would, in fact, this entire week has not gone the way I thought it would. My husband and I got into an argument again, mostly because of communication (and his extreme lack there of), …
When you don’t handle conflict the same way, anxiety, and some self hatred. Read More »
Today was a rough day. That’s okay, that happens sometimes. My body has not been feeling its best self physically, my emotions are all over the place… It’s just been rough. In more ways than one. It’s nights like these, where I’m feeling a little bit extra fragile, that I need to…..be careful of. I’m …
Self medicating sucks. Until it doesn’t. And then it does again. Read More »
Even now, in the “best I’ve felt in years”, coming off a high of 2 vacations back to back, I’m struggling. Even now, after a day that wasn’t all bad. A day that had its moments of hope and promise…I’m struggling. Struggling means a lot of different things for me. Sometimes, it means the most …
Lately, it’s been abundantly clear that depression has once again gripped its claws into me with no real signs of letting go anytime soon. Despite me literally just…being depressed…there have been some other signs that my body is screaming at me about that something isn’t quite right. Exhaustion. Let me be clear. If there is …
I don’t know if you’ve noticed or not, to be honest, you probably haven’t…but depression is kicking my fucking ass lately. I’ve tried to mask it, tried to downplay it and ignore it…but it’s just so big right now. Tonight sucks. For what seems like “no reason in particular”…I am having a really hard night. …
I’m in a strange phase of life right now. I’ve been in it for a while, but it feels pretty significant right now. This…constant push and pull. The… I love you, I need you, please don’t leave me… I don’t need you, I’m fine on my own, go away. With my husband, with my friends, …
Well, my husband has been gone for a while now. For honestly, what feels like forever. (He’s taking care of his dad who has been in a serious health decline.) I guess I’m feeling particularly lonely tonight. And it isn’t even 9pm yet! Last night I joked that after 9pm, my life basically just becomes …
I guess I’m feeling particularly lonely tonight, so I thought I’d share my most random, adhd, late night thoughts with you all. (Because I know you all care so much, right?) – After 9pm, my entire life just becomes one big ama! (Ask me anything). Seriously. All walls drop, and I just get very comfortable …
Random, late night thoughts. (AKA getting to know me?) Read More »
Things are….not necessarily better. But I’m…managing. ……? (I think?) My husband is still gone. And likely will be for quite some time. For reference, he sent me a text this afternoons that said “you’re not the only one wiping butts!” I responded by sending him a cute picture of our baby, who just so happened …
I had an epically bad night last night. I started crying on the way home from therapy, and it got worse and and worse as the night went on. I literally could not calm down. And this morning, my eyes are still incredibly puffy and anyone who looks at me can obviously tell what kind …