The past 6 days have honestly been the most wild whirlwind of events and roller coasters that I’ve experienced in quite some time. Okay, here’s the deal. It’s March. Which means, it’s birthday month. Technically, yes. My birth son’s birthday is in April…April 4th. But the entire lead up to it is in March, which […]
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This is a hard season, I’m not going to lie. My mind has been messy for a minute now, the trauma of the past year, and really all of it in general, is catching up to me. I’ve been holding on, fighting a winless fight for a long time now. This time of year isn’t
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Lately, the hurt hurts. And it hurts really fucking badly. I feel like I don’t have even the most fleeting of moments to catch my breath. To catch up. To…..nullify or lessen even an ounce of the hurt. The days are so long, and the nights have felt even longer. Nightmare, after nightmare, after nightmare.
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I’m definitely in a good bit of a funk right now. I’m hanging in there and doing the best that I can, but I can honestly say that I’m not where I want to be right now mentally. The weather is changing, it’s warming up…which means more stress on my heart and in my body
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I can’t help but feeling and thinking about just how vastly different things are now than how they were even just 5-6 months ago. Last night, I had therapy. Not with my therapist who I’ve had for literally the past 10 years straight of my life…but with someone extremely new, when you’re measuring it to
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One year later, and absolutely nothing is the same. February 13th, 2024. Just 4 days after our family returned home from our trip to the NIH. Our lives would truly be changed forever. It was a Tuesday morning. I dropped the my oldest son off at school, a first grader just beginning his school career.
One year later, and a whole lot more broken. Read More »
I have so much racing through my mind and my heart. So much that I’m feeling, thinking…hoping for and afraid of. I feel so much. Yet, I don’t feel like I have any words. It happens occasionally, more often than I’d like…maybe twice a year or so. But I get this feeling. Like…I’m so broken.
Why? Why struggle when the outcome I so desperately want seems so far fetched, so far away? Why fight when the fight seems so freaking impossible to win? What are we doing here? Seriously, what are we doing here?! Let’s talk about it. Yes. We’re fighting. We’re fighting like hell. We want to win. We
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Well, we’ve arrived at the moment I’ve been dreading for the past 8 days…another one is down with the flu. Despite my best efforts to keep my 2 year old, and my most medically fragile kid away from his flu positive brother…I was apparently unsuccessful. He started sounding pretty bad yesterday and the cold he
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If there’s one thing I’m sure of in life, it’s that our life in particular will just never be boring. It’s always going to be something, and all we can do is buckle up and prepare for whatever comes next. This week starts off with a Monday, much like all the other ones do. But
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