Suddenly, the world feels a million pounds heavier. Everything is building up, nothing can get done. Things are getting harder and harder and harder. Thoughts are becoming darker and darker and darker. Things are going on that I don’t know how to get into. Like, despite the fact that I asked, I reached out, I […]
Therapy last night, which is now back to its regular scheduled time of Monday nights, went well. We spent most of the 2 hours going over different DBT stuff and filling out a goals worksheet for the week. Different things to practice in terms of mindfulness and stuff. It’s a lot to take in and
Life has been an absolute whirlwind these past few weeks. My son starting school, my marriage being momentarily tumultuous, therapy being big and important and something I’m thinking about…just, like, having 3 kids in general… Yeah. I have more than enough on my plate to keep me busy and my mind occupied. However, something happened
Ignoring my feelings Read More »
I had therapy this morning, and even though I had a really rough week, it definitely went well. It’s a good thing my husband and I got in a fight that completely dysregulated me and freaked me out over the weekend. (Kidding, but also sort of not.) Anyway, it started off the same way it
A very successful Therapy Thursday Read More »
I tried to go slower tonight. Start later, make it weaker…drink it more slowly. And I succeeded. Until about…an hour into the night. And now, here we are. And I’ve had more than I should have. Still having more than I should. I know I should stop. I want to stop. I know I’ll regret
Can’t stop. Even when I want to. Read More »
Monday is my typical therapy night. And while last night, I didn’t have my therapy (this week I have it on Thursday)…I still did have therapy yesterday. But it wasn’t for me. I met with a new therapist who I painstakingly picked out with the help of my therapist. I was nervous, and even though
A different kind of Therapy Monday Read More »
Today is the kind of day where I’m just feeling all my feelings. After I dropped my son off at school this morning, I kind of just broke down. I never cry, literally ever, but I just kind of had a moment when I was driving home. Something about how I dropped him off just
A day for feelings Read More »
For the past 6 years and 29 days, my son has been with me. He’s never been away from me, aside from a short period of time here and there with close family members. He’s been in my care, under my supervision, and by my side, for nearly all of his life. But that changes
First day of school Read More »
Don’t you love the mornings that you have packed with back to back doctor appointments? Atlas has his 4 month checkup this first thing this morning, and then right after that, I have to run home, put him to sleep, and get my oldest son so he can come with me to see my therapist,
Ready for positive change Read More »
Yesterday morning, after months of being on the waitlist and hoping that this call would come sooner rather than later…we got the call that there is an opening for my son at the school we picked out for him. It’s a Montessori style school, and he’ll be starting kindergarten there. A spot opened up and
Nothing stays the same Read More »
