Guys, I have to say it. I am pretty damn impressed with myself with how accurately I predicted therapy would go with both my mom and my dad. When my dad came a few weeks ago, it was rough and brutal and just so non productive because all he did was tell me everything horrible […]
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Today was a bad day. Straight up, point blank. A bad day. It did not go the way I hoped it would, in fact, this entire week has not gone the way I thought it would. My husband and I got into an argument again, mostly because of communication (and his extreme lack there of),
When you don’t handle conflict the same way, anxiety, and some self hatred. Read More »
Whew. Here’s the update post we’ve all been waiting for! My husband is officially home. He flew back in late Saturday night, and yesterday was the first day he was really home. We didn’t tell the kids he was coming back (because I didn’t even believe it myself), so they were really surprised and happy
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I guess I’m feeling particularly lonely tonight, so I thought I’d share my most random, adhd, late night thoughts with you all. (Because I know you all care so much, right?) – After 9pm, my entire life just becomes one big ama! (Ask me anything). Seriously. All walls drop, and I just get very comfortable
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Love languages. How you feel love. If you’ve read the book or the articles, you know what I’m talking about. There are 5 different love languages: words of affirmation, acts of service, receiving gifts, quality time, and physical touch. My love language has definitely changed over the years, and even depending on who I’m with.
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Can I keep writing late at night about my truest and most honest and vulnerable feelings? Is that okay with you? It feels a little wrong, it feels a little dirty, but yet…it feels almost necessary. It’s beginning to feel like survival. Tonight is a night. The absolute worst kind of night. I feel so
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My mental health is currently….well, it’s concerningly bad. Lately, it seems that the majority of my nights are spent thinking of, wishing of death. Life has become too hard, too consuming. I no longer see an option of peace within my days, so I’m looking for calmness in other options. I don’t see death as
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This morning did not have the start to it that I hoped it would. My husband and I got in the same stupid fight that we do nearly every morning, and it’s just so unnecessary and avoidable. Is it a big deal? No. It really isn’t. But it pisses me off that we do this
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Let me be frank. Shit got Weird Saturday night. And not in a good way. As some of you might know, there have been a few times over the past couple of months that I have been sexually assaulted, with the worst offense being (raped but I really hate that word so I would really
Today has been a weird day. I had 2 hour therapy (for me) this morning, which went well, or at least I think it did. But ever since then, I’ve had this heavy and lingering feeling of anxiety. I don’t know what caused it, and I don’t know why I feel so bad…but I just
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