Do you ever just wake up, and feel like you’ve just got nothing in you to offer the day? That’s how I feel today. I woke up just completely on empty, nothing in the tank. My legs are more swollen than usual, everything hurts, and I just…I just don’t have it today. But no matter […]
When you wake up with nothing left to give. Read More »
So…therapy. Let’s just jump right in, shall we? With my husband coming with me last night, I didn’t know exactly quite what to expect. It went fine, overall, but it stressed me out a bit. We talked about “boring” things that’s I always try to avoid…money, our relationship, the future…all that shit. It went well,
Here we go…again. But I can do hard things. Read More »
Tonight, my husband is coming to therapy with me. This isn’t a particularly unusual occurrence, he’s been with me several times before…but for some reason, I’m nervous about this one. While we’ll likely end up talking about just whatever comes up, the topic at hand is “avoidance”. We both, but probably more so me lately,
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I have had a shitty beyond shitty weekend. What started out with the slaughter of 12 of my chickens due to predators on early Saturday morning led to a day of things that I did not want to do, which then led to tension between my husband and I. Which then led to some tension
“Love or alcohol, but not neither” Read More »
Today, I am taking a depression day. And, just what, you may ask, is a depression day? Honestly, I don’t really know. But it consists of not getting out of bed, not socializing with anyone or anything, eating whatever the fuck I want, and just basically, not giving a shit. I am beyond the comprehension
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As a stay at home mom, and really…just as a person in general, it can be hard to know what exactly it is that I’m angry or frustrated about all the time. Am I really angry that the 3 year old isn’t listening, or is this about something else? Is it really the dog that’s
This morning did not have the start to it that I hoped it would. My husband and I got in the same stupid fight that we do nearly every morning, and it’s just so unnecessary and avoidable. Is it a big deal? No. It really isn’t. But it pisses me off that we do this
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Well, yesterday sure turned into a shit show pretty quickly. As I was getting the kids ready for their therapies (Tuesdays are OT and speech days), I guess I was moving too fast, or not being careful, or I don’t know…but, I fell, and my stomach hit the ground. Ugh. Because I’m already considered high
Well, that was unexpected. Read More »
While a lot of things have changed in the nearly 7 years that I’ve been with my therapist…one thing has remained the same. The couch. We’ve moved offices, moved buildings, changed practices…decor changes and new artwork…but it’s always been the same couch. Until today. Last week, she told me (and thank you for the heads
Change can be uncomfortable, but that doesn’t always mean bad Read More »
So, I did something kind of cool (for me, anyway)…I reached out and asked for help. Look, I don’t know if this is one of those “big deal” things, and we all know that I hate labels here. But I’m also honest. And even when it’s hard, I have to be honest with myself. Part
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