The last few weeks have been…umm…how do we put this…really fucking brutal. The burnout is real, the exhaustion is insane, and I am just so…I don’t know. Tired. I know I haven’t talked about it a ton, but I’m actually doing mostly really well with the sobriety/not drinking thing. After the first 2 weeks of […]
When the depression kicks your ass Read More »
When it rains it pours here. And oh, is that exactly what it’s doing. My post on Thursday detailed my own semi medical emergency that I was going through, and just as I had FINALLY agreed to go to the ER to be seen on Friday…guess what happens? I get a call from my son’s
April showers? More like constant storms! Read More »
Ugh. I should’ve seen it coming a few days ago when I completely ran out of spoons, and have been at maybe 1 or 2 a day ever since. But, alas. Here we are. Properly seated in a flare up. Everything hurts, the brain fog is dense is shit, and I feel pretty horrible. Think…the
Who ordered this flare up? Read More »
Not going to lie, I spent a lot of today sleeping. And for me “a lot” really isn’t that much, but certainly a lot more than any typical amount for me. My husband took the kids out in the late afternoon when I started to just not feel great, and I spent probably an hour
Listening to my body and slowing down Read More »
Some days will be just like today. Where the bad just piles on. Nothing good about it. Just…crisis after crisis. Fire after fire. That’s what today has been. Questions followed by more questions, uncertainties followed by anxieties. Today was not easy. From the moment I woke up until the very end of it. Nothing went
Dear Sunday, I’m grateful for you today. An extension of the weekend that sometimes feels melancholy, yet something to look forward to all the same. Sunday vibes hit a bit differently today. I’m still pretty run down from my health crap I’ve been going through these past few weeks, and this weekend seems to have
Sticking with Sunday Read More »
This whole summer break thing is just so not it. It’s been a week. And we’re all going insane. Having 3 kids not only just with physical disabilities…but also with 2 of them having pretty severe ADHD amongst other things…phew. It’s kicking my ass. Last night at like 8:55pm, I half jokingly, but half not,
Burnout, but no breaks in sight. Read More »
I am in dire need of an immediate self care day. It’s been way too long since I’ve had anything that’s resembled self care, and I’m claiming today as my own. Now, I say this fully acknowledging that it probably won’t actually happen. But, still. I’m putting it out there, and I’m going to try
Claiming a self care day Read More »
I feel like I just can’t anymore. And that’s hard. It’s a hard pill to swallow. I feel like can’t do it. I can’t be the person everyone needs me to be. I can’t go to sleep because the nightmares terrify me. Or I’m (accurately so) afraid to fall asleep, because I know damn well
I can’t anymore……..can I? Read More »
Writing isn’t my job. It isn’t a requirement. I don’t get paid, I don’t necessarily get anything out of it (other than organizing my thoughts and hopefully finding support)….and yet, I do it. Freely and willingly. Some days are harder than others. Sometimes I have more to say, and the words flow freely….and sometimes, I
It’s hard to tell a story you don’t like Read More »
