I don’t know how I’m going to make it through today. I honestly don’t know if I want to. Everything hurts, everything is hard. Harder than it should be. I wish I could just say what I wanted to, what I really felt. Last night was rough. My husband wanted to go to bed at […]
Good morning, Saturday. I’m glad you’re finally here. Although truthfully, I’m never quite sure what to do with you. This morning I woke up and my husband already knew it, that you and I needed the day together. So without even asking, he took the kids out and will entertain them for the next few
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Oh, therapy. What else can I say about it. In typical 1 hour session fashion (as opposed to 2), anxiety very quickly took over and I successfully managed to talk about nothing that really mattered for the majority of it. It’s frustrating, but I also didn’t want to open up certain cans of worms with
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Therapy is an absolutely wild ride, friends. Seriously. You just never know what is going to happen when you walk in those doors sometimes. If you read my post from last night, you know that I was stressing out about it because I felt like there was just so much to talk about and work
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Hope:1. A feeling of expectation and desire for a certain thing to happen.2. A feeling of trust Hope has been my favorite word for as long as I can remember. I’ve always felt that no matter how hard things got, no matter how dark and how scary things were…all I could do was hold onto
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The sun rises on another day. A day full of unknowns and questions, much like any other day. I don’t know today will bring, I don’t know what emotions or events or feelings will come with it. Last night went well, when tension turned to breakthrough. Things made sense in ways they haven’t before, I
What if it just stopped? All the pain, all the anger, all the unfairness…what if it just went away? Lately I look around and despite how hard I’m trying, all I can see is darkness and pain. I’m frustrated and hurt. Nothing is really “wrong”, except that it is. I can’t feel loved, despite being
Today is a Monday, and it feels like a Monday. The lather – rinse – repeat of the week set to start all over again. I need a change, but I don’t know what that change is. Most days I wake up full of dread instead of hope. I know what my days hold for
Monday mornings. Ugh. It was an eventful weekend with no time for rest or refueling. We are still unable to go to the clinic for therapies, so the boys physical therapist will come to the house again today for a few hours to work with them. Most mornings, my husband takes the kids on a
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I woke up this morning unsure of what the day would look like. It’s a Wednesday, typically my busiest day with the most appointments and therapies, but today we have nothing. We can go at our own pace, I don’t have to time naps or plan to leave the house at a certain time for
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