Things have been weird lately. After spending 3 weeks in my own while my husband was away taking care of his dad, every day just started to look and feel the same. He’s been back for a week now. But even since he came back, weekends have given me a certain sense of anxiety and […]
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It’s begun to feel a bit like war has broken out between myself and my 4 year old. Whereas I thought the hardest part of my summer would be having my 6 year old home from school, turns out, it’s my 4 year old being a giant pain in the ass. (Look, this blog is
Today, my baby, who is now really my middle child (as of 7 weeks ago), turns 4. My little Phoenix Leo. A name that absolutely demands strength. A boy who’s body betrays him. Weak muscles and plagued with fatigue. But that’s the only weak thing about him. This boy is fierce. He is strong willed.
Hey, kid. I’m so grateful to be talking to you again in this sort of context. The last time I wrote to you, I was pretty upset over some “conversations” (?) that took place between your (adoptive) dad and I. The conversation wasn’t initiated by me, yet it left me feeling………so many things. Awful? In
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My son is sick. His birthday is in exactly 2 weeks. He’ll be 3 years old. (And no, I’m not okay with it.) He is the unfortunate recipient of a horrible genetic disorder, along with his older brother, gifted by none other than myself. The way genetic disorders work in families, each member can experience
When your irrational worry is justified. Read More »
I don’t like this picture. But it’s also my favorite. It’s a telling picture, to say the least. It’s not an attractive photo of me by any means, I look exhausted at best. But it’s one that means the most to me. What you can’t see from this angle is his little hand. He’s reaching
Love is the most healing force on the planet. Read More »
I had a doctor appointment this morning. Which honestly, is an accomplishment in it of itself. Last year when things were getting really bad for me, my therapist was starting to get kind of mad that I refused to go to a doctor. For some reason I just hate going. Ever since I was a
Oh, doctor appointments. Read More »
I don’t know the word to fill in the blank. I don’t think it’s gremlins, I don’t think it’s monsters. Maybe animals? But I am definitely living a life of chaos right now. Parents out there…you hear me, right? Man. We all have those periods of time where it just feels like every single day
Sometimes I feel like I’m parenting…? Read More »
Covid has stolen a lot from all of us. Directly or indirectly, it’s messed with all of our lives. In an enormous way. A few weeks ago, someone close to me lost their husband to it. One of my best friends is now struggling and fighting for her life because of it. She is in
The return “home” was harsher than I hoped. We got home just after my boys were in bed, but not yet asleep. We went in to say hello and goodnight, give them big hugs and all that, but it wasn’t that easy. My 4 year old took it in stride, was happy to see us
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