Being over here waiting for labor to start….is just one of the most frustrating things in the world. Ugh. Yesterday at my appointment, my doctor was pretty convinced that I was going to go into labor very soon. Then yesterday, I had a pretty significant amount of bleeding (which is okay and good when you’re […]
Ready when you are…Just not the 9th Read More »
As comfortable as I am in routine and normalcy, for some reason, right now I am really looking forward to change. I don’t know if it’s that my life has become so difficult and stressful and, well, basically unbearable that I can’t stand the thought of another day going through the motions, or what…but I
Craving change? Or just sick of the now Read More »
So I had a doctor appointment this morning at my high risk OBs office…but it wasn’t with my doctor who has overseen the entirety of my pregnancy. Instead, it was a doctor who knew nothing of me, nothing of my case, and clearly wasn’t even familiar with my chart. My husband was there with me,
Don’t be an asshole Read More »
Well, this could be my last weekend still pregnant, and I was hoping it would be more…I don’t know. Enjoyable? Instead, it’s been basically a rough weekend, and that does upset me. My kids are being…ugh. It’s just not the best time here right now. My 3 year old is currently going through a phase
When things just feel off Read More »
I’m starting to not feel very good again. I think I was okay for a second, or maybe not okay, but at least not stuck in the armpits of hell…but lately, I’m feeling really off again. I’m doing the best I can, but my best feels really shitty. I feel angry and anxious and stressed
Getting rough again Read More »
So, we’re down to weekly appointments now with my doctor for this pregnancy. If it were up to her, I wouldn’t be pregnant anymore. Medically, she does not want me to stay pregnant, and thinks it’s safer to induce me…now. But, since I’m under the care of Maternal Fetal Medicine as well as my regular
36 weeks down…not many days left to go Read More »
My days of this temporary “normalcy” are nearing over. A few more days..a few more weeks, and everything is as it was. All I can think about is drinking. All I can think about is the way things were. Things were awful. It wasn’t fun for me, drinking how much I was. Waking up every
I’m officially 36 weeks pregnant. Everything hurts, everything is swollen, and I want to just lay down and not move for the next few weeks. Sounds about right for where I’m at right now. The weekends are usually reserved for me resting a little, for recovering and trying to get enough energy to deal with
More than I can handle Read More »
When my husband and I made the decision to try to get pregnant again, there was a lot that went into it. We talked about genetics, and the possibility of once again passing down my genetic disorder (at the time, we didn’t know it was a 50/50 chance), we talked about age gaps, about money,
When things are deeper than they seem Read More »
I woke up this morning just consumed with anxiety. Not sure why, or where it’s coming from, but it is there and it is strong. Therapy went well last night, so that’s always a positive thing. We mostly talked about my kids and my son and what the heck to do about school for him
Good morning, anxiety Read More »
